' there couldnt be just one side to a problem.
just which side is more'

hi.

im currently in the unstable state of mind.
not the kind when i-take-out-a-penknife-and-start-shredding my-skin-apart.
just like, gosh, it's like im stuck in the world of confusion.
permanently. big time.

does anybody know the dilemma of having to hear things u never wanted to hear,
despite knowing it will happens and that it is natural?
well im going thru that right now.
actually for a long while.11 months to be exact.
and seriously, it is sickening, tiring.

not many will understand what im going thru until they hear of it.
well of course i cant just VOMIT out my emo-est thoughts on this blog,
for they will invite loads of trouble and shitty rumours.
and i might be in the centre of attention. whatever.
I DONT GIVE A SHIT TO THOSE WHO WANNA JUDGE ME.
go ahead and be judgmental. i dont give a hoot. ANYMORE

people make mistakes. even i do make mistakes.
i have been guilty of creating problems and
i would apologise. i would.

sighs im stopping here cos im really getting emotional.that's a bad sign.

i have never blamed u from the start

it's never gonna end isnt it?


it laid a mark on my heart.and it would never be erased.