HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

new year is coming
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just in a few hours, it will be the beginning of 2008!!
gah gah.
even though i do really miss my friends,
but but but but it feels like everything is happening too soon.
im so dreaded by the fact that we have to study real damn hard.
i dont even understand a single thing about logarithms.
gah gah gah.
in need of help here!!! (SOS)

there are so many resolutions i have for 2008
ssshhhhh cant say it here :x:x
heehee

going to change my blogskin for the coming new year!
WOOTS~~~~~

today went out with ting shiuan to bugis.
shopped here and there.
in the end bought this black off-shoulder tee:D
finally bought one eh! finally:D:D:D:D
was eying on this white skinnies but decided not to buy it:)
after the shopping, we headed to AMK hub.
we were searching for places to sit down...
walk walk walk ...walk until legs turned jelly.
when we reached food court, we found some heavenly red empty seats.
sitting on the chair was so oh-heavenly-nice-comfy:D:D:D
HURRAYS!!!

oh my goodness 2008 is coming!!!
basking into the new year!!!
WEEEE~~~~~~

*turns to take a look at the bloody thick books*
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sighs...... damn boring....need to study again.....
OH NO~~~~~~~~

now my whole body aching like hell...
walk too much for today.

i have chopped my hair on friday.
no seriously i really chopped off my hair.
and until now i cant believe my hair is short.
OMG IM STARTING TO MISS MY LONG HAIR:(((

nvm at least i tried a new hairstyle

ting shiuan and man ru said my present hairstyle is very SIMLIAR
to the hairstyle i had when i was in primary five.
(those who have seen my ezlink card, you will get what i mean)
but i argued cos my hair isnt as POOF-ED up.

we met up at cck mrt station platform.
trained all the way to orchard and walked around aimlessly.
kevin heng was kinda lost....(he couldnt find us)
and we walked around in circles trying to find him,
resulting my extreme hunger.
he blamed us for making him walk so much laa!!!

it was fun being with them
especially when we went to kinokuniya
and sat down at one corner to just crap around.
(kevin heng says he doesnt want to know me
cos im too crazy:D)

bah. anyways had a super great time with them.
i want to meet up with them some day :D:D:D:D
miss them loads~~~~~~


NEXT STOP:PICTURES


man ru, me and ting shiuan
MAN RU IS SEXY!!! (i dunno whether she will see this...)

me, kevin heng(behind), man ru and ting shiuan

this damn box of japanese sweets.
price=$9
OMG!!! i was tempted by the cute box and tiny sweets
it was telling me to buy it laa, so i bought it.
the sweets are hard but it is pleasure to suck them:D

but if you were to bite it....your teeth might break:D

okays being lame here...again:D:D:D:D

it is already christmas eve.
gosh time flies really really fast.....

watched national treasure at jp last week.
damn nice show. and i want to visit the city of gold:D:D
GOLD GOLD GOLD:D:D:D:D:D:D
imagine everyday when you wake up, surrounding you is all that shiny gold.
seeing your reflection from any angle on that shiny shiny gold,
and hugging a golden teddy bear to sleep.
ooooo lalala. i have gone mad

lately i have deprived of sleep.
dunno why. im just not tired at night.(because of this, my eyebags have become so damn big)
but it is nice blasting the music in the dark night when nobody cares a hoot on what you are doing.
you can do the craziest things like shaking your arms around wildly
or kicking you leg in the air as if you are kicking somebody out of anger
or making up anime love stories(last night i imagined one about sesshomaru[dont ask me why] and this girl:D:D woots!)
or just thinking of somebody or something and smile to yourself:):):):):):):):)

BYE PEOPLE(i think nobody is reading eh..)

AND MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!!
i dowan the typical 'may all your dreams come true'
so i decided to write: 'may you go lala during the festive season'
*dots**rolls eyes at myself*

*and thank you winanto for the msg.
but i didnt reply you cos i dunno if you are in indo or singapore..
but anyways thanks a bunch:D

christmas is coming soon:D
tmr fixing phone. hurrays.
i hope it wont be spoilt again cos if it does again,
i will bang my head on the wall or ask somebody to shoot me in the head
all of you be my WITNESS then:D:D:D

meeting up with ting shiuan and man ru this saturday.
enwen couldnt make it cos her dad wants her to study=.=
im so sad laa. it is such a rare occasion to meet up again...




(anything written doesnt IMPLY to anybody. so no offence:D)

there are so many fakers in this world.
it is so hard to differentiate from which is which.
i just happen to have heard some story from somebody and it got me thinking.
who are your real friends?

it is so unjust when you get the blame
when you dont even know what has happened
sometimes when a person react to something stupidly
it is not cos she/he is really that stupid
it is cos they want to run away from everything,
and stop the hurt in them,
or just simply do not wish to let people know that everything has been a facade.
sometimes they dont understand not cos they are stupid by nature,
but maybe cos they just dont want to know the truth.
paranoia is what they fear, that's all.
they know running away will not help,
but sometimes it is so damn hard to face the truth.
the truth might be lethal and fatal to handle.
that is why they are so afraid of just looking at it.


only god understands.
probably that is the reason why i seem so fake then.

okays im just randomly typing craps.
but you all get my drift right?

im shaking so hard right now
first time kind-of-thing in my life
i dunno why:D:D:D oh well, who cares.

it is weird posting so many times in just a week.
but please dont miss out the other recent posts okays???
LMAOS~~

today is like my unlucky day i suppose.
my phone cocked up for the second time.
cant open inbox, drafts, sent messages, saved messages.
i cant send any messages.
but i still can call people and receive calls with it.
weird phone.
so i changed my phone to the old crappy SAMSUNG phone...
sighs.........

secondly, my tummy hurts like hell hell HELL.
major diarrhoea. LOLS.
and im still laughing about it:):):)
today i feel like toilet is my second home.for the first time.
okays i have to cut down on my craps.

well they aint gonna affect my christmas+holiday mood.
anyways i have pictures to upload.
hope you all enjoy laa:D:D:D(lame craps again)
kikikidildidli lalala
by the way the photos are all in a mess. too lazy to arrange it,


*gosh i think really got the CRAZY virus from man ru


ricia and i. okays i know i look totally constipated.

okays i look stupid in all of it.
1st shot. act pai kis
2nd shot. another constipated smile
3rd shot. act cute:D

ting shiuan's and my reflection.

me and norryn. okays i couldnt put up the original picture
cos i stupidly replaced it with this edited picture.
dumbo right???

me and aini.
i was bored so edited until like that:D
besides blue is our fave colour:D


ting shiuan and i. i look DARK and my head looks BIG.

i dunno why i took this photo.
just saw the train stop there.
*norryn said when i was taking this picture, one of my legs was lifted up.
to think i didnt notice....




now PICTURES of the lightings in orchard.
*my sis and i had a hard time taking them okays!
and some of them are sort in the wrong alignment so you might have a hard time just looking:X














and i saw this car with cute circular backlights.
sort of reminded me of mickey mouse. the shape of it...
i tried taking pictures of it but i was too far from it.
this is a rough drawing of it
WARNIING: TERRIBLY DRAWN> VERY LETHAL.(okays i have gone over the limit)


okays this isnt detailed.
but deal with it. not bothered drawing it specifically:D

the show alvin and the chipmunks wasnt that bad as i thought.
the chipmunks were so cute, dancing around and singing.
woooo hooooo chipmunks are COOL:D:D:D:D:D

'send you flowers when the sky is grey...'adapted from one of the songs in enchanted

christmas is coming.
and im so so so freakishly excited.

i have so wishes eh.
a whole long long list of it.

1.eat a christmas tree lollipop.
2.do well in 3B(okays humbly and FRANKLY speaking, im not sure if i can top my class but heys i will give you all a good fight, especially to LOO ZHEN HAO:D)
3.go to orchard and see the lightings!!(amanda already asked me out to take many many pictures!)
4.go fly a kite( literallly. this phrase isnt referring to the 'go and die' phrase)
5.eat cake everyday
6.live in a never-melting chocolate castle
7.have a can of whipped cream and spray the whole thing into my mouth
8.have more outings before the holidays are over
9.go to japan(impossible laa. just a WISH)
10.go to the beach and scream at the top of my lungs again
11.learn how to cycle a two-wheeled bike
12.be taller( be around 160 +??)
13.have more stamina:D
14.have fairer skin( another almost-impossible wish)
15.be more brave and outspoken
16.meet KIM JOHN(or jeong?) HOON in person:D
17.take extreme thrilling rides(roller coaster, blahblah.)
18.to paint and decorate my room.(in it, i want people to be blowing dandelions everywhere. it is also known as JINNY JOES in the book 'if you could see me now'.)
19.to paint e potrait of my loved ones:D( lame right?)
20.to be able to inherit the skill of sewing
21.take more neoprints( i already have so many..)
22.to design a wardrobe of clothes:D:D:D
23.to paint the whole world with many bright colours.
24.be more fluent in my chinese( okays this is very very impossible laa, but please lord and santa, grant this very wish for me)
25.to meet SANTA CLAUS in person as well:D:D:D:D
26.to ride on santa's reindeer and travel around the world.
27.everybody to be happy always

last but not least...
28. WORLD PEACE.

there are still many many more wishes.
but so far, these are the only ones i can remember from the back of my head.
and by far, these are the most important wishes to me:D


and this is the lyrics for the song 'tattoo' by jordin sparks:D

Oh, oh, oh

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

[Chorus]
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you, I'll always have you)

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

[Chorus]

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you)

[Bridge]
If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do

[Chorus x2]

Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

cant wait for tomorrow:D
TINGSHIUAN.

next time i wil upload the pictures.
hope i wont forget aye:D

and guess what?
i have learnt the art of swallowing a huge panadol pill!

P.s pardon the big handwriting. tried fixing it but failed X(

optimism is so not in my blood now.
as it has been for a period of time
hmmm but heys, im not letting anything get in my way...
besides people wont really want to read emo posts right??
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

today is absolutely fun.
took so many photos of the lightings in orchard,
which is totally awesome.
the theme colour is blue:D:D

i really would love for anybody to ask me out
and go with me to orchard late at night.
and just watch the lightings together.
it would be so damn fun. and heart-warming.

(from here, i think it would be damn boring for some people....)
currently, im searching about the Christ.
i want to see how much it affected people's thoughts,
or just see all the profound philosophical things...
it is so amazing how the little-lest things can change a person's character.
or the soul within .
somehow it is so uplifting and wonderful a religion can actually guide you along the road.
sometimes when you don have anybody to turn to, you still have god cos you know he will always be by your side.

whenever you feel the road ahead of you seems beyond your reach or ugly,
you pray for guidance (from god, depending on your religion laa) and protection.
and even though it isnt certain whether you are getting that guidance or protection,
you somehow feel relieved that you have said your prayers.
at least you have a chance of your prayers to be answered.

im talking gibberish laa. gahgahgah(babay laughter???!!)


and WINANTO!!
i have deleted the photo lerr:D:D
hope nth terrible happens to me.

woots bought new phone!!!

i forgot the model name...
anyways it has been on advertisement lately.
the shake shake one.
the one you can shake to change the music you are currently listening to.

yays finally.
cos my phone sucks big time.
it will just off by itself, which irritates me alot
so noe that i have a new phone, YAYS.

and im still wondering which of this are the right spelling?
toa payoh or toh payoh??

that question suddenly popped up from my mind.
hmmmmm kind of a stupid thing laa.

and there are so many songs i want to put on my blog
but it has to be only EITHER ONE OF THEM!!:

one republic-apologise

timbaland-the way i are

click five-empty

paula deanda ft. bow wow- easy

alicia keys - no one

gwen stefani- now that you got it

avril lavigne- hot

linkin park- shadow of the day

and many more....
so in the end i settled with hot by avril lavigne:D:D:D

i love the chalet loads.
i have so many pictures to upload.
but the effing blogger keeps popping up some asshole probs
BUT again, i manage to upload the pictures:D



amanda, steph and felyna


the fire of life:D lameshit


(p.s edwin says his hair was in a mess, but seriously, do you see any difference??
he claimed that i never told him i took a picture of them.
but then i argued that he was too engrossed with his PSP
he concede defeat la. yays)


edwin and LZH. edwin's hair where got messy, you tell me??

ying kang, derek and edwin.
derek looks very adorably funny. that was the purpose of this shot anyways.
edwin says he look sleepy.
more like he is busy peeling his nails la =.=

pink flip flop: mine
blue flip flop: winanto

and note the rainbow nails. lols.

i love the chalet alot. did many first-time-things there.
first time go chalet,
first time go ride a bike(four-wheeled one laa bodoh),
first time went to the so-called cliff and screamed my lungs out,
first time slept on a hardcore floor and shiver like mad,
first time actually never slept for five hours straight,
first time threw a ball of sand into the sea,
first time i swam at night in the very very dark pool,
first time i didnt care about what the world thinks of me(only awhile before i went back into my always-deep-in-my-thoughts-kind-of-thing)

oh ya about the swimming thing.
let me recap about the whole stupid story.
firstly, me, weiting, wendy, felyna and amanda went to the poolside to play.
amanda dared me to jump inside the pool, and i said i would if wei ting or wendy joined me.
so wei ting did and we both jumped inside.
what we didnt know was that there were surveillance cameras surrounding us.
so we kena caught laa,
the guard told us if we continue to play and make so much noise,
the manager will scold him then he will bei kena blamed.
blahblah (here comes the exciting part)
he told us that there were this group of teenagers who came for their chalet.
they jumped into the pool in unison.
so as they were playing, they were oblivious to the fact that one of their friends was missing.
until one of them saw the friend in the pool with the head down.
he told us he isnt being patang but just wanted to warned us.
so much for our fun. our mood got affected so we headed back to the chalet.
that was when winanto said my hand was trembling.
he lifted my hand up for me to see. to think i didnt know that the whole time.

yikes im getting the goosebumps.
shivers shivers.


next few pictures are taken out of boredom

i like the chairs(foot ball and basketball)
so i took a picture of it.

some dessert from swensen's


ricia's and my reflection taken at bugis' mrt station:D

my messy bed:D:D:D:D

yesterday watched lars and the real girl at vivo.
it was midnight then.

the show is very touching.
it is about a guy called lars. he bought a doll and announced to the whole town she was his girlfriend.
the touching part is that everybody willingly played along with him to boost his confidence.

and i want to watch 'if you could see me'.
it is going to be on theatres!!!!
yays!!!!
it is actually a book written by cecilia ahern.
it is a absolute thunbs-up:D:D:D:D
if you are fantasy+romance book lover, this book will make you melt on the spot:D



from here onwards of the post, it would be kinda emo personal
you can dont read it if you want:

im sorry for causing the hurt that is building up in you,
to think i never noticed. and i do care for you.
you exist in my heart. really.
i cant afford to lose a good friend.
you were there for me whenever i feel sad.
i have to reciprocate.but im afraid to deepen your pain.


i will change to be a better person and smile for more reasons:))


im better off dead

OH JUST GET AWAY.
JUST DO THAT, I WILL BE SUPERBLY GRATEFUL.



thank yous.

i have just finished watching titanic.
it was sad. i nearly cried, you know.

when rose passed on after dropping a big blue diamond(heart of the sea) into the sea,
her spirit went back to the ship as everything in it goes back to normal.
the floors, the stairs went back to what it used to be before the ship sank.
so she went into the ballroom, with all the people who did not survive the ordeal in there.
they warmly welcome her. they even formed a path for her to walk to the clock.
and Jack was there, waiting.
she embraced into his arms and they kissed.
they are overjoyed by the fact they have reunited after all these years.

i know that this love story is not true.
but i cant feeling that sadness, as if im connected to it.

im also sad about the diamond thing.
that diamond is so so so rare and yet she just drops it into the sea.
the rarity of it =soaring high
meaning= $$$$$$

haha i sound so money-faced.
but i seriously admire her nobility.
and im so so glad they have reunited in the other world.
in a place where they first met, titanic.

i sound so dramatic aye!!!

and im so happy!!!!!!
yipppeeeesssssssss...................~~~~~~

WINANTO!!!!

i put ten SMILES for you already.
and people, im not being biased.
because he asked for those ten smiles,
so i am forced to do it ya just like that okays:D:D

besides i am nice!!!!

today went for a job hunt. with steph

FAILED TO GET ONE!!!!

all the same reasons:
1)we dont need help currently. we can try contact you
me(in my thoughts): you will definitely forget us

2)must be above sixteen
i even went to ARIES boldly if they have two free vacancies( steph went home already ).
so i dejectedly went out of the shop knowing there were no vacancies, quan jie pointed a note placed right in front of the counter.
it writes: MINIMUM AGE= 18.

3)need full-time workers
sighs i cant be working everyday. my results will plummet.


steph and i even went to bra shops.
i dont even remember where we went to just to ask for VACANCIES.

and i have to work at mcdonalds for ONE year.
my dad strictly DISAPPROVED of that idea.

so in the end, im jobless:D

i want to work aye. i want to know the feeling of having you paycheck.
i want to smell my pay.MY HARD-EARNED MONEY!!!!

$_$

ok ok amanda mad partner asked me to update about the shopping trip
and i specially put two smileys for her.

aint that nice of me? well duh!!!

last friday, i met up with amanda. alicia and her friend, yu ting, were with us.
we waited outside for her at first and when alicia called her to ask what was holding her up,
we then realised she was in the popular waiting for us=.=

we asked if there were any vacancies for us in popular
they said we were too young.
so results: NO JOB!!!!
=.= i want to work lah!!!

so yup after that we went to meet some of amanda's buyers.
then headed off for bugis:D:D:D

oh ya there was this lao ah pek went up to alicia and amanda.
he did that grumpy-old-man-sucky face at them and asked,
'are you sure you are allowed to eat in the MRT?'
(they were eating famous amos cookies at the moment)
they were in the process of popping their cookies in their mouths
before being rudely interrupted by this lao ah pek.
he even had the cheek to roll his eyes at us with all those wrinkles around them.
we were malu and highly irritated by this old fart.
i mean the cookies are so so darn small.
it is not like they are having some feast of shark fin's soup or what-so-ever.
it doesnt really make a difference so why make such a big fuss??
grumpy old farts. pfffft.

back to bugis' trip.
we shopped alot i guess.
my puny head was busy deciding which shirt to choose.
the long yellow shirt or that cute tee??
in the end i chose the cute tee:D:D:D

alicia and yu ting went off around 3 plus for some practice.
so amanda and i carried on the shopping.
i really admire amanda. she just freely buy anything she likes.
my hands were itching and dying to grab this crumpler skirt
(amanda wanted it too but didnt have the size she wanted )
but then i had to control the temptation cos im afraid when i buy it,
it will turn out to be some impulse buy and then i will regret for the rest of my life.
besides i cant buy any clothes........................SADLY.
zit that was soooo lame=.=



the shirt i bought. cute yeah??

1st november is da best:D

what a big notion. it was all for fun:D:D
but seriously that day was a super WOO-HOO!!!


lovingyoumoreandmoreeachconsecutiveday

hahas.

i love my friends lah.

yesterday i went to eat lunch with suhaira, amanda and weiting at pizza hut in JE
it is so fun gossiping with them.
i just realise suhaira is really really sotongnish( new word. taddaaa!)
and her laughter is one of a kind.
it is so squeaky and cute. hahas very funny lah.

it is only the start of holidays
and i have been dreaming of our class D:

sighs im bored.
someone entertain me?

im missing 2bee more than anything else.

i really wish we can stick together in the same class.
why do we have disperse and separate???

it is kinda too fast.
it feels like i just zoomed into time.
well it seems we still havent spend enough time with each other
before we separate and go different classes

oh oh we can never have a time limit with each other.
a minute or a second without 2bee is good as drinking salty coffee:(((

this is the first time i feel so tormented.
in the past when my classes were separating, i was only interested in making new friends.
and when during primary 6 graduation, even though i did feel very sad about us going to different schools, it wasnt half as bad as how i feel now.
probably i felt it this way is cos i kinda interpreted my friends will change
and they did, in either a good or bad way

but 2bee'07 has created beautiful memories that are very hard to let go.
without all the clowns and friends, it feels like there is a void in my heart.
2BEE is DA LOVE<333333333333

i know you people will be thinking:
'aiyo it is only separating lah. i mean you are gonna be in the same school for two years!'

it is not as easy as what you think.

and think deeper,
if right now im feeling so upset about us 2bee scattered into different classes,
wont it be worse when we graduate in teo years' time ????

sighs i really MISS everybody.
lucky there will be a chalet held from 20th - 22nd november.

i bet, on the last day, all the girls will have tears streaming down from their cheels.
girls are more sentimental, no offence to the boys.

i want 2beee!!!

IM ALREADY MISSING 2BEE LAH.

my god im missing everything.
i wish we can never seperate ever.

gosh time flies really fast this year eh??

:(((((

im your happy girl:D

my gosh i didnt even know why i did this.
got influenced by getai??

i dont know.
i dont even the reason why i posted this hideous picture:D:D:D
and my face= constipated. =.=
and i look so so so so so so ugly. heehee.

steph was laughing at me.
aiya nothing better to do mah:D:D

yays im in my very happy mood:D
cant say later people think i show off.
but im really happy!!
and i want DJ MAX!!! anybody lend me your psp...mao or nat or steph??!!
i HELP u level up:D:D:D:D
ci ji gan!!!!

i just read something from somebody's blog..
and right now im very.............red.

lols. oi second time eh... piak you or buttock!
ahahahahas:D:D:D:D:D:D

and im touched? hahas!

heehee i think im mad. heehee
and guess what im doing??
im listening pokemon songs on youtube??

lame much...
but the songs are quite nice:D:D:D

hahah i ki siao liao. wu yao ke jiu:D:D:D
my head is hopelessly floating everywhere.
and during the holidays you peepoes BETTER ask me out.
cos i dont wanna rot at home!!! i wanna play and just simply have fun.
so pls pls anybody...pls have a date with me!!!!
anywhere also can...i just want to hang out:D:D:D
PLEASE ASK ME OUT!!!!!

and i want to fly a kite and play sand:D
im still kid and i will never change that:D:D:D lame lame lame:D:D
will someone do the honour and accompany me?]

:D:D:D:D:D
IM SO FREAKISHLY HAPPY:D:D

heys.

im currently bored.
besides nobody sees my atrociously DEAD blog.
hmmmmmmmm salvation is not enough:((

i have just watched hills have eyes 2.
i was shaking, my sister was grabbing me.
it was so bloody. the main girl character used some sharp object
to...errr...pierce the cannibal's(he's a guy) genitals and the mouth.
and blood was flowing...no no... spurting out like a water from a fountain.
but this case, the water is crimsom and very very thick.

grrrrrrrr....eeekkks.

yesterday my family and i watched the making of the Alien Saga.
the aliens looked like moving raw chicken meat.
they look so....mechanical-like...and silver.
they almost look liked the humongous creatures which have broken their spines.
i dont know.....they look very awful and disgusting.
and i didnt know that alien's blood were corrosive.
eee yerrr i wish and hope to never never ever see an alien.
afraid of being corroded. shheesh.
(so sorry if there's any colour change in the font)

imagine seeing an alien baby killing its own mother alien(the queen apparently)
and going up to a human clone and then acknowledging her as its mum.

ohhhhh my gosh......

my weekend is all about grotesque stuff to me.
blood, weird looking creatures....
is there a message in it? hmmmmmmm
hoho im thinking too much....*laughs uproariously*

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there is no point holding onto what's left behind
cos its gonna hurt you more emotionally....just literally everywhere.
it will ache.....

sighs i hope i wont be in class with strangers next year.
i really dont want 2Beee to seperate...
i will miss everything with them crazy fellas...

*crys crys*

dang....

17th october:
it was cross country.
i totally dread it. loads loads loads.
why do they have to organise it the second time
it is so redundant...at least for me
the kind who hates running and sweat
and rather stay at home to pig out and sleep.
i absolutely protest against the idea of any form of sports
(except hockey and badminton)

geeez anyways i still ran
wasnt much of a choice.
i didnt want to be the last few.

after the X country,
i asked mrs gan for my maths..
she is disappointed with my marks:(:(:(
i was UTTERLY disappointed as well, much more than her thats all i know
i nearly fessed up my reasons to this.
but there isnt really much of a point to tell her
what and how it all happen and why everything stung and stunk bad.

god teachers are getting another impression of me
like im some problematic student who is a magnet to troubles.
they think that i have done not so well due to him
i mean cmon....i do not have the time to think about it.
i already have a effing load of another prob...
do you really expect me to think of that as well??!
so what if i did think about it, do you expect me to just brush it off?
do you think i want all these stuff to fall upon me
at the crucial time, my END OF YEAR.
blame it on my karma or what so ever.

when will people get to understand that people can fall.
so what i have done well(thats what people claim) in sec one??
does that really apply to every year of school?
i would love to maintain that image honestly
BUT I CANT!!!! i cant!!!

grrr get off my back.
just stop telling me how much i have fallen
cos i do know what are the reasons.
and do you think i like it??

huishi you gotta chill man...
you are just going thru whatyoucallit.
part of school, part of life.
chill man....

i gonna suck ice until i have cooled off

i went to bugis with amanda and felyna.
when we were heading to the food court
we coincidentally saw mao mao, brandon, guan jie, alex and wei xiang.

we went to bugis street.
spotted so many WANTED clothes
skinny jeans, little miss tees...more tees!!
lols i really want to buy everything but i dowan to spend so much.
gonna save it up for my holiday usages:D:D:D


18th october:
went to JE with amanda to eat.
settled our lunch in pizza hut.
lols. we gossiped about almost everything.
it is fun just sitting down and chatting over a cup of coffee...
but in this case we did it over curry baked rice and pizza...

sighs im getting so lame...

today sucks.
i can tell everybody is so shocked by my maths. seriously.
i wish i have a real therapy buddy to help me.
shheeeeshhhh.......

and i really have a burning question for everyone...
am i the kind who has anger inside me?

i wish upon every bread crumb everything can be resolved
even if it takes me to go through the hurt and
let them go from all the pain....

i just put up a new song
'only one' by yellowcard:D:D

the song is so...touching?
heehee i super duper really in love with it.

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
Only One Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one


anyone who has the song MUST MUST send me.
you better send it to me or i will fa feng ( go crazy)
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

EFF cant upload my pictures.
dammmit.
FWOREHAHAHAHAA
gotta laugh to keep myself from being angry.
YALALALALAKAKAKAKAHAHAHHAHA!!!

im watching TAXI now.

too busy to post.
LOLS. geez.

prudence. exhilarating.

not gonna be some whiny girl
gonna create or be a brand new story:D:D

heys.
i have decided not to harbour ANY depressing thoughts.
im so squeaky clean and officially off this:D:D

someone, congratulate me?
hmmmm what the hack, that's not the point anyways.
i dont even CARE what you people think
love me or hate me, i dont give a damn
cos this time i did no wrong.
so why i should be pitying myself over such trivial matters?
make myself seem like the only living thing in the world who is suffering
when there are others going through more hellish things than i am?
nothing is gonna wreck my life
well if you think you can make me do SHIT HELL stuff
or change to somebody i never knew...
shut the hell up:D:D

haha i really wanna thank all my friends:D
they taught me to always look at the positive side
and assured me i will be okays:D
that someone/s were there when i cried and did something sinful:D
that someone was there to comfort me when im down
that someone made me change my whole concept towards life:D
so melodramatic but it is true...
i am so grateful of what they have contributed in my life.
love you all ALWAYS(and i mean it big time)

right now im...hmmm just browsing through people's blog.
lols. and im drawing something:D:D:D
hahas im rather relaxed.
cos all the brain-tiring exams are finally over!!
geography, history, maths, chinese...

oh man...
speaking of chinese...
cher said i pass my paper 2:D:D:D
my first reaction: yays!! i pass!!! cher then how good did i pass?
then she said:pass only by few marks.
so second reaction: damn...

so my happiness died down:(:(:(:(
my efforts are all futile:(:(:(:(
im so scared to fail chinese. practically frantic...
bwah i want my chinese to just improve badly...
even it is just a tiny weeny bit D:

today i had maths paper 2.
there was this question that came out and it was about reciprocals.
AT FIRST i look at the question, i knew what reciprocals was
THEN when i was going to write my steps
I REALISED i have just forgotten the formula
i only knew how to solve the question in an EXACT 1 second
...and i stupidly forgotten the formula..
IN THE END i left the question blank
TADAAH i just made 3 marks flew away which was ACTUALLY within my grasp!

this is so !@*@&$&#&$#^@^^@^!
im one step closer into getting that pathetic 3 marks.
there goes my chance...bid farewell to my 3 marks:(:(:(
BYE TO YOU STUPID 3 MARKS WHICH WAS SUPPOSEDLY BE MINE!

STUPID LAAH!!
why did i even forget the formula?!?!!!
nevermind about maths....pfft.
finished reading two thick books, namely twilight and new moon
in four days for the first time in my lifetime
i was so engrossed with the story:D:D:D
now im starting on the last book: eclipse:D
wooo lalalalala.
jinyang thanks for introducing these books.

hahas kays will stop here:D:D
before you go, read the following things.
copied from some friendster chain thingy:D:D

do you know i love you? i do care

Many people will walk in and out of your life.
But only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.
To handle yourself, use your head;
To handle others, use your heart.

Friends

Great minds discuss ideas;
Average minds discuss events;
Small minds discuss people.

He, who loses money, loses much;
He, who loses a friend, loses much more;
He, who loses faith, loses all.

Beautiful young people are accidents of nature,
But beautiful old people are works of art.

Learn from the mistakes of others
You can't live long enough to make them all
yourself.

Friends, you and me...
You brought another friend...
And then there were 3...
We started our group...
Our circle of friends...
And like that circle...
There is no beginning or end...

Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is mystery.
Today is a gift.
That is why it is called the present.

http://www.clementsen.com/email/friendship.php


dunno whether i missed out anything eh...:):)

she is one step closer to panadols.
you get her drift do you?

you will only understand once everything is over,
when you see her lying on the floor motionless
holding on to what's left with her.
the shine in her eyes is gone, lost forever.
and before you know it, she is already dead,
and is in somewhere so beautiful
....like paradise.

a piece of heaven is all she truly needed.
but that hope is crumbling away slowly..
what's left with her is just a forlorn look
which seems to be silently crying for help.
she is awaiting for an end to her misery,
something that can ride her away to an endless dimension,
of nothing but serenity...

ruined dreams;dashed hopes.



i dont even how i had the idea of writing this.
it just popped up in my head all of the sudden.
i dont think it is good poetry.
but whatever it is, it definitely feels better:D

i hate myself.
when i see the reflection, i dont see me
i see an ugly girl whose tears are falling..alot.

gotta build up an emotion shield around me
just in case....

geez.

is crying everyday normal?
to not sleep a wink every night...izit normal??

i want help;my mouth is sealed
i seek for a Samaritan;where are you?
i tried to run; but it comes back for me..
end the road; it wont be able to follow you then.

stupid write ups.
chey...

today i was mugging...
well not really cos i slept halfway.
im slacking loads behind.

no mood to write
no mood to even make my brain think.
i think my brain is under a huge construction
or a thousand midgets have just went into it and ate it up.
gross that is so morbid.

tata

P.S im not trying to gain attention with all these writings. im just tired?

mood:sombre

i really cant take it.

people expecting me to achieve goals.
people expecting me to be someone i cant recognize in my reflection.

well this year people have been telling me that im falling.
they think i should be doing well.
im not blaming you guys. im kinda happy you all think that i can do it.
and i will study hard for it to maintain this.

but this pressure of being number one is slowly strangling me.
the thought of me just falling to the pit of nowhere is scary.
the thought of losing my grip and control is overwhelming.
i dont even know how to be myself just for once..
im pretending to put one such a fake stupid smile. superficial.
i laugh with another person within me & she is hiding her sorrow in her pathetic heart.
my eyes are losing that shine. darkness is lurking silently.

i know you guys will tell me not to care a hoot of what they think
and just do your best.
but i cant help it is everyone thinks that way.
people tell me i work hard not to impress people
but to for yourself and your pride?
great i dunno what im saying....*@*@#&$#&#*@*

eff....

i know all of these problems cant add up.
they cant be compared with others.
in fact, i should be happy i only have these to worry.
but it just......im just worrying too much yeah?
HAHAHAHA

sometimes when i cry, i think people thought im some crybaby.
maybe i am. but crying is a way to relieve this stress.
crying to oneself is a way to rid all of the pressure.

but nowadays i try to hold back the tears that may just drop any moment.
im learning to be strong.im learning to be someone who will never let anything bring her down.
i want to be somebody who just dont cry and laugh at everything/
and it isnt working. everything is backfiring.
im just bluffing myself, pretending everything's alright
when the truth is....it is not.

yet my heart is assuming and claiming.
and im believing it. i dowan to face the music.
dowan to be in a place so cold...with nothing to hold on.
i feel that im alone to face these upcoming...hmm..adversities?

but i gotta try. i gotta be on my two feet.
i will never ever give in to this shitty stress

geez. said it too easy?
but do i have a choice?
nope i dont. i just have to strengthen my inner self.

heys heys.
i have been too lazy to post.
including now.but just writing bits of my day just to make the post nicer.

first floor toilets are officially painted!!
yays. everything looks good:D:D:D
but make sure you people dont dirty it.
i swear i will kill you the minute i see you rubbing your dirty feet over my precious toilet doors.
MUAHAHAHAHA. hear my evil laughter:D

today went for the medical check up.
saw evelyn and shu fen.
it is such a coincidence:D:D:D:D:D

after that my mum and i went to JEC.
yet again i saw the two felicias from art club, zi hui, ru hui and other JVSsian.
hahas. in total, i saw like....10 over JVSsians.
anyways today watched ratatouille.
very nice. the food look so good.
how i wish i could gobble it all down:D:D:D

sighs today i seem so listless.
sighs plue embarrassing....WAHWAH. gotta relax.
dowan continue about it....im turning so red already:(:(:(

here are the pictures:D
TADAAAA. ENJOYYS:D:D:D


LADYBUG. aint that cute?

this was a random pic.
that guy leaning against the door is mdm nuraidah's husband

a smiling face:D


natalie:im gonna make that charcoal burn!


tweeze!


haha im just too cool to be seen;)

me and nat flaunting out unique style


the mermaid(i did the toning of the skin. she looks burnished..)

the man! my hunk for life:)


finishing touch of the mermaid. she looks fairer cos she was repainted again...

tic-tac-toe!


wanna fine this inscriptions?
find it yourself!


haha again the skin is over-tan.
culprit of it: me!


haha. i couldnt resist taking another pic of it!



a blob of chocolate! nah it is brown paint...

chocolate pudding with white icing on it. star shape!

chocolate blob with a fully coloured white star:D


WAH.
im so confused:(:(:( it is happening again yeah??
hahas i think i can handle the pressure. HEISHO.

____i love him so much, my brain is falling out_______