Saturday, April 12, 2008

today is my grandma's birthday.(sort of)
happy birthday!(i know she cant even see this..)
anyways today had sore eyes, totally was in a daze.
forgot to thank people. blah blah.
wasnt myself basically. felt like i was floating.. weee...
ok cut the crap and get to the point yah?

timothy was cute today. tried to play the car games with marc's psp,
and sadly,his tiny fingers are not long enough to press the buttons.
and he likes blue cars ALOT. really alot
not to mention, he cried buckets cos marc was going home.
his eyes were watering non-stop, his breathing pace was kinda irregular.
but it was a cute scene. lols. i sound so mean.
fancy laughing at a small boy who is crying. HA~HA~

fixed my spectacles. the nosepad(?) plastic stuff ...the one which supports the nose lah.
that thing came off. wampoom.

and today is crappy. at first my phone went stupid.
so i decided to reset the settings. and this process would not delete anything in my phone.
just what happened?

600+ of my photos have disappeared!
and all the nice ones were 'deleted' automatically. applaud for the idiocy of the phone.
i was so pissed i could rip the whole phone with my teeth.
What Hurts The Most


I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....





initially i wanted to post some stuff.
but decided to backspaced it. and somehow edit it to look nicer,
and presentable. you can skip it if you already presuming that im such a darn faker,
and just trying to capture the attentions of others.

and if you already thinking beyond that, im sorry dude,



and i dont mean anything. really.
maybe im not sensitive enough.
anyways you find your story soon.
when everything goes your way.

this does not refer to anybody:
i know you want me to die so much. you are wishing for it.
for all you know something might happen.
im tired of dealing with abrupt emotions that comes and go.
happy, sad, happy , sad, angry, happy, angry.
can i ask? is it a crime to look like you cry alot as if like a crybaby,
but the actual fact was that it was a method to vent and clear the sorrow accumulating
in the 'ill-stricken' heart?
seriously, i dont know who im really am.




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ok from here, the fonts might go haywire again.
gahs this is so irritating.

okays i also have no topics to say.
so sorry yah, this post might be a tad too boring.

pictures will posted some other day, a day when i can actually recall.. kinda lazy now.

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