my mum: sighs, why do u keep attracting the malay guys?
me: ???
my mum: everywhere i go, i see malay guys looking at you.
me: not my fault, skin too dark
my mum: you look too malay!
me:=.=

lols im tan !!! too tan until people thought im a malay.

today was great. skipped today's lessons for art club competition(:
setted up out booths, got ready.
it was kinda boring at first, then when the children flooded into the hall
it was overwhelming. they crowded around out booth cos they got real interested in our
keychains made from old unusable paintbrushes.
they were cute(: they like me(:(:(: i think. helped them paint, glue the things together.
i even flattered them. children are easy to please. not like me(:
oh ya i was suppose to be a brush but it failed.
so my stiff ponytail coiled into bun. nat's plaits coiled up. we look good.
got the pictures. aint posting it cos i think i look horrible.(:
oh my hair still retains the smell of hairspray. urrgh disgusting.
used ALOT of shampoo and conditioner-masque. my hair has smoothen but the smell....puke.
hope nat's hair is fine(: (she said my hair is really thick)
mdn rafilah is the best teacher for a lifetime(:
and *** ** is not very likeable. her reputation is going down and down to the pit.
im really sad for her but she sorta asked for it(: had it coming.

nat and i talked about some issues about sth.
i thought alot about IT. and i think i should just be shot at.
i really dunno what im thinking. nat told me to think thru.
but i cant. it feels like my vision is blurred by sth.
i cant seem to focus properly on one thing. it is very bad of me.
that is why i feel like chopping my body, acidify myself and be rammed over by a train
sighs.

im an idiot. i deserve the worst punishment ever.
sentence me for my folly and sins.

wtf.

i saw something real bad. my eyes broke into halves for a split second.
scary (:

anyways , mark, a friend i made from last year's cruise trip,
is coming to singapore for lodging. asked me to intro him good hotels.
luckily never said hotel 81(:
hope he enjoys his stay here.


kill me if u must, for i have committed a crime.why is my heart speaking differently from what my mind says?