my hair is so thick.
so layered yet the ponytail is so thick.
hahas but im happy about it:D
sudden appreciation for my thick hair.

you might be wondering why i mentioned about my hair from out of the blue huh?
cos my mum said sth about my hair.
she was stroking my hair today, then she suddenly said that my hair is very layered.
i was like 'really meh?very thick leh.'. hoho.
she told me to not cut, later layer layer and botak.
hahas exagerration! anyways the part on the botak thing was not true.
like i mentioned in my previous post, dunno which...
i said i would leave it long. anyways my hair grow really fast.
within six months, my hair can grow at least 5-6cm.
cool huh? happy happy. cos end of dec my hair would be nearly reach
half of my back. by then , i would be a super happy crazy hyper girl.

part of me wants to do a super layered haircut.
hmmmmm but im not giving in.
gonna wait until my hair grows real long.

and seriously i abhor porridge.
insulting me....
i hate you .wait 'hate' is a word too strong. i dislike you
your life must be miserable
by the increasing no of haters.YOUR haters i mean.
i dont care. im not gonna DISAPPOINT you.
im gonna do it, prove it. prove to you im not all that lousy in that subject.
when that happens, you will be the first to hear the GOOD news.

dickhead.

recently i have been spouting various vulgarities.
not turning to an ah lian dont worry.
just that some *** people make people's lives miserable.
why dont they just disappear? they only bring misery.
dont know why. are they like some testers or obstacles in life?
chey .

(before you say anything, i must say this :IM NOT EMO-ING)
im just so angry at myself.
i dont know. im just so pissed and frustrated for the past week.
or month. dont keep track on these mundane stuff.
SOMETHING made me think. think about lots of random things
which slowly resulted into anger, hate and abrasiveness(mental note: i wrote abrasion at first but check the dictionary and realised i used the wrong word. HAH!)
. and i really hate this.
im tired of listening to IT almost everyday.
sometimes i get so tired ,i wish i can just sleep the whole day,
just so that pest-like thought would vanish.
except i cant do that cos i have homework.
so i turn to studying...to rid this idiotic thoughts and abrupt emotions.
and it is somehow working. i understand the depth of some of the topics from the sciences better now.
as much as i want to stay strong, i still long and yearn for a shoulder to lean on.
yet i will reject cos i dont NEED one. not trying to act cool.
AND i want to say this, PLEASE DONT SAY YOU CAN BE A SHOULDER TO LEAN ON.
except if you are one of my besties-girlfriends. see it, GIRL-friends
if not, shoo. really, shoo.
but seriously , what for? people will think you are fake and pretentious in the end.
i made a mistake last year. so not gonna repeat it again.
so ya, rather stay strong, cool and funny.


and ya i dont believe in what people call 'fantasy'.
COS IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN. no offence though.
why fall for it when you already know it can never happen?
haha people will say im being way too practical and realistic.
yeah. seen too many things happen.
so mindset will automatically tune. yupps. so cant blame.
blame on those who started those happenings.
hmmmm actually cant fully blame them..
aiya whatever. this is so redundant.

right now, im kinda not in the mood.
sighs and i really want it to go away.


okays think of the bright side of life.
hmmmmmm....
i have a project to do. oh nothing to be happy about.
ok my primary schoolmate Emmanuel just told me he dissected a pig's heart.
ok not being sadistic. but u cant deny that it is kinda....interesting.
a kind of thing which makes u ask alot of question.
sound like a nerd dia. hahas.

oh gosh i have been busy surfing the net,
i have totally neglected my geo project.
friday must hand in...so rushing.
why cant the the teachers put forward the deadline?
i think this sentence sounds weird.
nvm.

byes peeps. needa start on something.


you know, i really want you to kiss my arse