heys!

i havent been online for almost a month, excluding the IT enrichment
which was a total bore. the lecturers were slacking, well most of the time.
but they were very good people . throughout the enrichment, they allowed us to use the internet
if we BEHAVED ourselves:D

i have alot of things to update on.
people are telling me to update...
but im kinda lazy:D cos i have not touch the computer for more than a month.
thought people wouldnt exactly notice. my blog is usually dead, well to me.
so i really appreciate the fact you peeps actually read my blog and want me to update.
but my memory bank isnt the size of an elephant, so i cant exactly remember everything i did .

and im missing out lots of stuff without going online.
last to see, last to know, last to witness.
well this is not the point:D

attended a wedding dinner on 24th may.
basically, i was walking, IN MY HEELS, to find the venue where the wedding is being held.
i guess my mum had it worse, since she wore stilettos , which was gift from my sis and i to her for mothers' day:D
me, my sis, mum and grandma were walking back and forth in EXPO.
and im telling you, EXPO is SUPER BIG.
never ever going to step inside again. i cant imagine myself having to walk rounds just to find something. brrrrr .

i realise something, even though i have some arguments with my mum,
or we exchanged words, i still love her always cos she is always there for me.
although sometimes i do get intimidated, i still love her:D
mum YOU ARE THE BEST:D

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it is not about the necessity to wish someone happy birthday.
people do so , because people have put you in their important list of friends.
they called because they want you to have the most memorable birthday.
they stayed up because they think YOU are worth it.

and we honestly do not wish to see him hurt you again.
it is not about going through us before going out with someone.
once bitten, twice shy.
ya, i admit, we were against the idea of you going out with him.
you may question about your own freedom and choice of friends,
we may seem CONTROLLING and probably ...OUTRAGEOUS?
i tell you, we were not.
we were merely concerned and feared of the possibility of everything repeating again.
we just dont want to see the whole cycle start again. it is unbearable.
is this too much? arent friends suppose to FEEL this way?

and ya we intended to throw a surprise for you.
but we decided to cancel it cos you were going out with your family,
which is pretty understandable(on the part you celebrating ur birthday with your family)
then tables are turned and shockingly, we were the ones being surprised.
turns out you went out with him.
hmmm...well we may sound totally unreasonable.
but only cos this was came across as heart-shocking news.
we were not expecting you to do anything, ya.
anyways, you have the freedom to hang out with friends,
so this should be put aside.


and i agree with steph, we are also reflecting on ourselves.
occasionally, i do think whether the whole rollarcoaster ride is worth it.
and i want to tell you, nothing in this world is worthless. nothing.
so, like what steph said, we do not wish to have this friendship ties being severed.

i rather we will talk to each other face to face.
'cept, maybe not now, since the air is still very super ultra mega thick.

im not pleading for anything.
just voicing my opinions. and clear the air.


and this is for another person,mind you. dont jump to conclusions cos it does not refer to you:
PLEASE DONT ACT AS IF YOU KNOW EVERYTHING.
dont even TRY, i emphasize , TRY to point out my misdoings.
or mistakes or whatever people call it.
nothing in this world has everything structured out perfectly, i know.
but do you think i saw all of it coming?
oh, did i persuade god , to what, let all of these things happen?
clearly you dont really know the situation.
so STOP assuming and telling me what is right or wrong or whatever.
you want to be a smart aleck, go do it to someone else.
im not going to take ur nonsense.
do not wish to HEAR any rubbish. so GET LOST.
and before you go, GO CHOP OFF UR MOUTH!


i hope things will tide down.


** will post pictures some day. got over hundred . so dont expect me to actually bluetooth-ed all the pics from my phone to the com and upload.:D too lazy.
but i will remember to put some memorable ones:D