hahas.

i love my friends lah.

yesterday i went to eat lunch with suhaira, amanda and weiting at pizza hut in JE
it is so fun gossiping with them.
i just realise suhaira is really really sotongnish( new word. taddaaa!)
and her laughter is one of a kind.
it is so squeaky and cute. hahas very funny lah.

it is only the start of holidays
and i have been dreaming of our class D:

sighs im bored.
someone entertain me?

im missing 2bee more than anything else.

i really wish we can stick together in the same class.
why do we have disperse and separate???

it is kinda too fast.
it feels like i just zoomed into time.
well it seems we still havent spend enough time with each other
before we separate and go different classes

oh oh we can never have a time limit with each other.
a minute or a second without 2bee is good as drinking salty coffee:(((

this is the first time i feel so tormented.
in the past when my classes were separating, i was only interested in making new friends.
and when during primary 6 graduation, even though i did feel very sad about us going to different schools, it wasnt half as bad as how i feel now.
probably i felt it this way is cos i kinda interpreted my friends will change
and they did, in either a good or bad way

but 2bee'07 has created beautiful memories that are very hard to let go.
without all the clowns and friends, it feels like there is a void in my heart.
2BEE is DA LOVE<333333333333

i know you people will be thinking:
'aiyo it is only separating lah. i mean you are gonna be in the same school for two years!'

it is not as easy as what you think.

and think deeper,
if right now im feeling so upset about us 2bee scattered into different classes,
wont it be worse when we graduate in teo years' time ????

sighs i really MISS everybody.
lucky there will be a chalet held from 20th - 22nd november.

i bet, on the last day, all the girls will have tears streaming down from their cheels.
girls are more sentimental, no offence to the boys.

i want 2beee!!!

IM ALREADY MISSING 2BEE LAH.

my god im missing everything.
i wish we can never seperate ever.

gosh time flies really fast this year eh??

:(((((

im your happy girl:D

my gosh i didnt even know why i did this.
got influenced by getai??

i dont know.
i dont even the reason why i posted this hideous picture:D:D:D
and my face= constipated. =.=
and i look so so so so so so ugly. heehee.

steph was laughing at me.
aiya nothing better to do mah:D:D

yays im in my very happy mood:D
cant say later people think i show off.
but im really happy!!
and i want DJ MAX!!! anybody lend me your psp...mao or nat or steph??!!
i HELP u level up:D:D:D:D
ci ji gan!!!!

i just read something from somebody's blog..
and right now im very.............red.

lols. oi second time eh... piak you or buttock!
ahahahahas:D:D:D:D:D:D

and im touched? hahas!

heehee i think im mad. heehee
and guess what im doing??
im listening pokemon songs on youtube??

lame much...
but the songs are quite nice:D:D:D

hahah i ki siao liao. wu yao ke jiu:D:D:D
my head is hopelessly floating everywhere.
and during the holidays you peepoes BETTER ask me out.
cos i dont wanna rot at home!!! i wanna play and just simply have fun.
so pls pls anybody...pls have a date with me!!!!
anywhere also can...i just want to hang out:D:D:D
PLEASE ASK ME OUT!!!!!

and i want to fly a kite and play sand:D
im still kid and i will never change that:D:D:D lame lame lame:D:D
will someone do the honour and accompany me?]

:D:D:D:D:D
IM SO FREAKISHLY HAPPY:D:D

heys.

im currently bored.
besides nobody sees my atrociously DEAD blog.
hmmmmmmmm salvation is not enough:((

i have just watched hills have eyes 2.
i was shaking, my sister was grabbing me.
it was so bloody. the main girl character used some sharp object
to...errr...pierce the cannibal's(he's a guy) genitals and the mouth.
and blood was flowing...no no... spurting out like a water from a fountain.
but this case, the water is crimsom and very very thick.

grrrrrrrr....eeekkks.

yesterday my family and i watched the making of the Alien Saga.
the aliens looked like moving raw chicken meat.
they look so....mechanical-like...and silver.
they almost look liked the humongous creatures which have broken their spines.
i dont know.....they look very awful and disgusting.
and i didnt know that alien's blood were corrosive.
eee yerrr i wish and hope to never never ever see an alien.
afraid of being corroded. shheesh.
(so sorry if there's any colour change in the font)

imagine seeing an alien baby killing its own mother alien(the queen apparently)
and going up to a human clone and then acknowledging her as its mum.

ohhhhh my gosh......

my weekend is all about grotesque stuff to me.
blood, weird looking creatures....
is there a message in it? hmmmmmmm
hoho im thinking too much....*laughs uproariously*

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there is no point holding onto what's left behind
cos its gonna hurt you more emotionally....just literally everywhere.
it will ache.....

sighs i hope i wont be in class with strangers next year.
i really dont want 2Beee to seperate...
i will miss everything with them crazy fellas...

*crys crys*

dang....

17th october:
it was cross country.
i totally dread it. loads loads loads.
why do they have to organise it the second time
it is so redundant...at least for me
the kind who hates running and sweat
and rather stay at home to pig out and sleep.
i absolutely protest against the idea of any form of sports
(except hockey and badminton)

geeez anyways i still ran
wasnt much of a choice.
i didnt want to be the last few.

after the X country,
i asked mrs gan for my maths..
she is disappointed with my marks:(:(:(
i was UTTERLY disappointed as well, much more than her thats all i know
i nearly fessed up my reasons to this.
but there isnt really much of a point to tell her
what and how it all happen and why everything stung and stunk bad.

god teachers are getting another impression of me
like im some problematic student who is a magnet to troubles.
they think that i have done not so well due to him
i mean cmon....i do not have the time to think about it.
i already have a effing load of another prob...
do you really expect me to think of that as well??!
so what if i did think about it, do you expect me to just brush it off?
do you think i want all these stuff to fall upon me
at the crucial time, my END OF YEAR.
blame it on my karma or what so ever.

when will people get to understand that people can fall.
so what i have done well(thats what people claim) in sec one??
does that really apply to every year of school?
i would love to maintain that image honestly
BUT I CANT!!!! i cant!!!

grrr get off my back.
just stop telling me how much i have fallen
cos i do know what are the reasons.
and do you think i like it??

huishi you gotta chill man...
you are just going thru whatyoucallit.
part of school, part of life.
chill man....

i gonna suck ice until i have cooled off

i went to bugis with amanda and felyna.
when we were heading to the food court
we coincidentally saw mao mao, brandon, guan jie, alex and wei xiang.

we went to bugis street.
spotted so many WANTED clothes
skinny jeans, little miss tees...more tees!!
lols i really want to buy everything but i dowan to spend so much.
gonna save it up for my holiday usages:D:D:D


18th october:
went to JE with amanda to eat.
settled our lunch in pizza hut.
lols. we gossiped about almost everything.
it is fun just sitting down and chatting over a cup of coffee...
but in this case we did it over curry baked rice and pizza...

sighs im getting so lame...

today sucks.
i can tell everybody is so shocked by my maths. seriously.
i wish i have a real therapy buddy to help me.
shheeeeshhhh.......

and i really have a burning question for everyone...
am i the kind who has anger inside me?

i wish upon every bread crumb everything can be resolved
even if it takes me to go through the hurt and
let them go from all the pain....

i just put up a new song
'only one' by yellowcard:D:D

the song is so...touching?
heehee i super duper really in love with it.

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
Only One Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one


anyone who has the song MUST MUST send me.
you better send it to me or i will fa feng ( go crazy)
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

EFF cant upload my pictures.
dammmit.
FWOREHAHAHAHAA
gotta laugh to keep myself from being angry.
YALALALALAKAKAKAKAHAHAHHAHA!!!

im watching TAXI now.

too busy to post.
LOLS. geez.

prudence. exhilarating.

not gonna be some whiny girl
gonna create or be a brand new story:D:D

heys.
i have decided not to harbour ANY depressing thoughts.
im so squeaky clean and officially off this:D:D

someone, congratulate me?
hmmmm what the hack, that's not the point anyways.
i dont even CARE what you people think
love me or hate me, i dont give a damn
cos this time i did no wrong.
so why i should be pitying myself over such trivial matters?
make myself seem like the only living thing in the world who is suffering
when there are others going through more hellish things than i am?
nothing is gonna wreck my life
well if you think you can make me do SHIT HELL stuff
or change to somebody i never knew...
shut the hell up:D:D

haha i really wanna thank all my friends:D
they taught me to always look at the positive side
and assured me i will be okays:D
that someone/s were there when i cried and did something sinful:D
that someone was there to comfort me when im down
that someone made me change my whole concept towards life:D
so melodramatic but it is true...
i am so grateful of what they have contributed in my life.
love you all ALWAYS(and i mean it big time)

right now im...hmmm just browsing through people's blog.
lols. and im drawing something:D:D:D
hahas im rather relaxed.
cos all the brain-tiring exams are finally over!!
geography, history, maths, chinese...

oh man...
speaking of chinese...
cher said i pass my paper 2:D:D:D
my first reaction: yays!! i pass!!! cher then how good did i pass?
then she said:pass only by few marks.
so second reaction: damn...

so my happiness died down:(:(:(:(
my efforts are all futile:(:(:(:(
im so scared to fail chinese. practically frantic...
bwah i want my chinese to just improve badly...
even it is just a tiny weeny bit D:

today i had maths paper 2.
there was this question that came out and it was about reciprocals.
AT FIRST i look at the question, i knew what reciprocals was
THEN when i was going to write my steps
I REALISED i have just forgotten the formula
i only knew how to solve the question in an EXACT 1 second
...and i stupidly forgotten the formula..
IN THE END i left the question blank
TADAAH i just made 3 marks flew away which was ACTUALLY within my grasp!

this is so !@*@&$&#&$#^@^^@^!
im one step closer into getting that pathetic 3 marks.
there goes my chance...bid farewell to my 3 marks:(:(:(
BYE TO YOU STUPID 3 MARKS WHICH WAS SUPPOSEDLY BE MINE!

STUPID LAAH!!
why did i even forget the formula?!?!!!
nevermind about maths....pfft.
finished reading two thick books, namely twilight and new moon
in four days for the first time in my lifetime
i was so engrossed with the story:D:D:D
now im starting on the last book: eclipse:D
wooo lalalalala.
jinyang thanks for introducing these books.

hahas kays will stop here:D:D
before you go, read the following things.
copied from some friendster chain thingy:D:D

do you know i love you? i do care

Many people will walk in and out of your life.
But only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.
To handle yourself, use your head;
To handle others, use your heart.

Friends

Great minds discuss ideas;
Average minds discuss events;
Small minds discuss people.

He, who loses money, loses much;
He, who loses a friend, loses much more;
He, who loses faith, loses all.

Beautiful young people are accidents of nature,
But beautiful old people are works of art.

Learn from the mistakes of others
You can't live long enough to make them all
yourself.

Friends, you and me...
You brought another friend...
And then there were 3...
We started our group...
Our circle of friends...
And like that circle...
There is no beginning or end...

Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is mystery.
Today is a gift.
That is why it is called the present.

http://www.clementsen.com/email/friendship.php


dunno whether i missed out anything eh...:):)

she is one step closer to panadols.
you get her drift do you?

you will only understand once everything is over,
when you see her lying on the floor motionless
holding on to what's left with her.
the shine in her eyes is gone, lost forever.
and before you know it, she is already dead,
and is in somewhere so beautiful
....like paradise.

a piece of heaven is all she truly needed.
but that hope is crumbling away slowly..
what's left with her is just a forlorn look
which seems to be silently crying for help.
she is awaiting for an end to her misery,
something that can ride her away to an endless dimension,
of nothing but serenity...

ruined dreams;dashed hopes.



i dont even how i had the idea of writing this.
it just popped up in my head all of the sudden.
i dont think it is good poetry.
but whatever it is, it definitely feels better:D

i hate myself.
when i see the reflection, i dont see me
i see an ugly girl whose tears are falling..alot.

gotta build up an emotion shield around me
just in case....

geez.

is crying everyday normal?
to not sleep a wink every night...izit normal??

i want help;my mouth is sealed
i seek for a Samaritan;where are you?
i tried to run; but it comes back for me..
end the road; it wont be able to follow you then.

stupid write ups.
chey...

today i was mugging...
well not really cos i slept halfway.
im slacking loads behind.

no mood to write
no mood to even make my brain think.
i think my brain is under a huge construction
or a thousand midgets have just went into it and ate it up.
gross that is so morbid.

tata

P.S im not trying to gain attention with all these writings. im just tired?

mood:sombre

i really cant take it.

people expecting me to achieve goals.
people expecting me to be someone i cant recognize in my reflection.

well this year people have been telling me that im falling.
they think i should be doing well.
im not blaming you guys. im kinda happy you all think that i can do it.
and i will study hard for it to maintain this.

but this pressure of being number one is slowly strangling me.
the thought of me just falling to the pit of nowhere is scary.
the thought of losing my grip and control is overwhelming.
i dont even know how to be myself just for once..
im pretending to put one such a fake stupid smile. superficial.
i laugh with another person within me & she is hiding her sorrow in her pathetic heart.
my eyes are losing that shine. darkness is lurking silently.

i know you guys will tell me not to care a hoot of what they think
and just do your best.
but i cant help it is everyone thinks that way.
people tell me i work hard not to impress people
but to for yourself and your pride?
great i dunno what im saying....*@*@#&$#&#*@*

eff....

i know all of these problems cant add up.
they cant be compared with others.
in fact, i should be happy i only have these to worry.
but it just......im just worrying too much yeah?
HAHAHAHA

sometimes when i cry, i think people thought im some crybaby.
maybe i am. but crying is a way to relieve this stress.
crying to oneself is a way to rid all of the pressure.

but nowadays i try to hold back the tears that may just drop any moment.
im learning to be strong.im learning to be someone who will never let anything bring her down.
i want to be somebody who just dont cry and laugh at everything/
and it isnt working. everything is backfiring.
im just bluffing myself, pretending everything's alright
when the truth is....it is not.

yet my heart is assuming and claiming.
and im believing it. i dowan to face the music.
dowan to be in a place so cold...with nothing to hold on.
i feel that im alone to face these upcoming...hmm..adversities?

but i gotta try. i gotta be on my two feet.
i will never ever give in to this shitty stress

geez. said it too easy?
but do i have a choice?
nope i dont. i just have to strengthen my inner self.

heys heys.
i have been too lazy to post.
including now.but just writing bits of my day just to make the post nicer.

first floor toilets are officially painted!!
yays. everything looks good:D:D:D
but make sure you people dont dirty it.
i swear i will kill you the minute i see you rubbing your dirty feet over my precious toilet doors.
MUAHAHAHAHA. hear my evil laughter:D

today went for the medical check up.
saw evelyn and shu fen.
it is such a coincidence:D:D:D:D:D

after that my mum and i went to JEC.
yet again i saw the two felicias from art club, zi hui, ru hui and other JVSsian.
hahas. in total, i saw like....10 over JVSsians.
anyways today watched ratatouille.
very nice. the food look so good.
how i wish i could gobble it all down:D:D:D

sighs today i seem so listless.
sighs plue embarrassing....WAHWAH. gotta relax.
dowan continue about it....im turning so red already:(:(:(

here are the pictures:D
TADAAAA. ENJOYYS:D:D:D


LADYBUG. aint that cute?

this was a random pic.
that guy leaning against the door is mdm nuraidah's husband

a smiling face:D


natalie:im gonna make that charcoal burn!


tweeze!


haha im just too cool to be seen;)

me and nat flaunting out unique style


the mermaid(i did the toning of the skin. she looks burnished..)

the man! my hunk for life:)


finishing touch of the mermaid. she looks fairer cos she was repainted again...

tic-tac-toe!


wanna fine this inscriptions?
find it yourself!


haha again the skin is over-tan.
culprit of it: me!


haha. i couldnt resist taking another pic of it!



a blob of chocolate! nah it is brown paint...

chocolate pudding with white icing on it. star shape!

chocolate blob with a fully coloured white star:D


WAH.
im so confused:(:(:( it is happening again yeah??
hahas i think i can handle the pressure. HEISHO.

____i love him so much, my brain is falling out_______

hey y'all
yesterday was my birthday.
grown a year older:D
and im still so short, for my age, which is fourteen
im so short. im only....150cm?
how short can that be? wah bwah kwah.
omg. i wanna be taller. at least 160cm??
how come i dont get taller by the year??
someone, pull my legs please..
or flatten me in the chewing gum machine.
the one in the book charlie and the chocolate factory.
and i will sure be like elongated...sighs the lameness.
who can you blame for my madness?

miaow

well this post will be filled with nonsense
so please either be ready or you can just X-ed the whole blog:D
as simple as ABC. 123.

well i think it is best to start the post with something happy,
which is all about my birthday! hurrays. BANZAI(i dunno how to spell that. well. wth?)
happy to received so many wishes and blessings from my FRIENDS:D
lols. (just emphasising on that particular word:])
also received some presents:D woopee:D:D
am very appreciative of what i have from y'all:D
thanks a bunch. love love y'all:D

16th august(my BIRTHDAY!!!):
after school
me, steph, wei xiang and tan hao wanted to go clementi.
cos we were deciding the venue for too long,
tan hao decided to just go home:((
in the end, we went to west mall bus stop to wait for mandy and huiwen.
so fun gossiping with your best and good-dest friends:D

while we were waiting,
steph realised that mandy and huiwen over the other side of the bus stop.
so steph and me waved kinda hysterically to get their attention
and they saw us:D hooorayS!!
so they walked over the overhead bridge and met us.
and then...we just sat at the bus stop there,
wondering what are we going to do next.
in the end, again, me, wei xiang and mandy went to bukit panjang plaza.
they bought some doughnuts and ate it ate in the playground near the HDB flats.
si weixiang go put chocolate on my face. then i put on his hand:D
and when i saw mandy like very 'clean', i decided put chocolate on her face:D
so funny seh. loved that day:D my birthday:D

17th august
CROSS COUNTRY!!!
it was raining so heavily(i even prayed for that badly)
god answered my prayers man.
so results: no running!!
but i heard that cross-country will be postponed.
boo hooo. i dowan to run.
lao ah ma hates running LAH:p

but was so bored sitting in such a small space with lots of pupils.
and tummy pains came and go:(((

we, i mean everybody, sat down at the same spot for almost 3 hours.
out butts were glued to the hard floor LAH.
then my back aching like siao.

after everybody was dismissed,
we all have to walk under the rain for a long distance to the MRT station.
was drenched all over XP.
anyways me, cherry, ricia, jy and potato went to JEC makan.
took so many neoprints:D and evelyn bought me a toufu toy for my birthday:D:D:D
yays:D
later went to science centre to play water with bear, amanda, GWT, cherry and jy.
(ricia went home lerr)
i want to have fun everyday yeah. :D:D:D
isnt it good this way to enjoy every day of your life
without any worries and problems??
wouldnt that be nice...


cherry took this.
so bo liao right? i loved the pillar to much LAH.
got one uncle say dunno what but i know he is trying to tell me to get off.
haha. so stupid....

my hand. i dunno what was this for..


had enough. have been tolerant for a long time.
now im blasting it all out. this 'irritant' has parched on my heart endlessly
and it is getting too heavy to hold. so here i am, letting it all out..

i had enough really.
i thought i was being too much. i nearly wanted to take the initiative and talk.
when something held me back, telling me 'no.'
and i decided to listen. i was in despair and depression first.
but i thought it over and over again.
was it worth it to go through all of this 'torture'?

and i have drawn more than before
and when i draw alot alot, it means im distraught and angry
in each drawing, i tried perfecting every single detail in the facial features.
and everytime i fail to do so, i vent my anger on my eraser.
how come it is the non living things that have to endure my fits and tantrums?? lols!

i tried to understand the situation.
i really cant stand it. seh.
enough is enough.
it has crossed the limit.

if any of you were in my shoes, what would you have done?

and i wanna change my skin but have not find the right one.
wish me luck:D:D:D:D

sighs my blog is going to die.
please savage the tagboard:(:(

everyday is the same,
im mugging for my common test.
hitting books so early. thats what everybody said.
dammmit.
i forgot to bring my geography book back.
so stupid nanaboo. miaow....

i really dunno what to do.
to be honest, i didnt see this coming.
at loss for words.

dowan continue lerr.
im lost man. arrrgghhhh ack.
and im playing a childish game.
havent cheng shou yet.
relishing times as a child before i grow old...

lao ah ma flying away

heys.

havent updated for two weeks,

dont have anything to say.
everyday is as boring...

wait correction....increasingly boring in every consecutive day.

lately i have been practicing for the singing community thing.
ya we are going to PROVE to people we can do it.
lols. we will never screw this up.
HOHOHOHO. beware of the flamboyant 2B:D

sighs. i hope everything will turn out fine.
im so scared my voice might rebel ,
like out of tune, wrong notes. you name it.
it is so preesurizing just looking at so many heads
and then singing.
especially when you are in front, singing in the mike...
omg im so scared i might just run out of the stage.
im so worried i will do the wrong dance steps.
sighs i wish i wont make a fool out of myself in front of everybody...

and i cant stand that gorilla.
and that other girl.
miaow. show attitude to us.
pffft. messing with the wrong people.
no mood to continue about them. MIAOW

schedule is so hectic and tight...
every monday i have to stay back to teach my maths buddy.
tuesday have to stay to practice
wednesday stay for art club.
friday...art club again.

thursday is my day off.
and normally, i will be at home rotting away
watching my favourite spongebob and heading to bed before dinner.

recently, i dont really enjoy the company of mr todd.
all we do during the enrichment are just making clay murals.
no fun at all. unlike mr chua.
i totally miss his accent, the way he jokes,
the way he would laugh just listening to us crapping away
and his big tummy. lols.
and mr todd expects everybody to just sit down like robots, staring at the clay,do the mural
and EOL(end of lesson)
there is nothing memorable enough for me to remember.
and sighs..first time in my life i feel that art club is a bore.
lols.

where are you mr chua?
i want you back..

sighs i wish i could do something very meaningful...or cool
like flying to the clouds, watching the cars jamming the road and pigging on chocolates?
how fantasizing is that??

lols.

send cloe and clovis last saturday.
cloe was crying buckets.
she hugged everybody, including me.
when i saw everyone's tears welling up and flowing freely
i tried to convince myself we will meet each other soon
and hold back my tears:D

dammm im strong.

seh i will miss them loads.

see i told you.
i have nothing to write.
absolutely nothing.
im just so bored until i think power rangers is cool.

omg...how stupid that phrase sounds.
i think my brain is malfunctioning.
WAH. hopelessly dead.

and exams falls on my birthday.
and the day after my bday is cross country
how bad is that?
sighs my cells are dying soon...
wait...they are dead

will be MIA-ing from msn and blogging for a while
due to the common tests.
wish me luck:D
NANABOO

bloody blogger.
here i WAS. happily penning my 'diary'
and apparently the blogger decided to log off by itself
blank. the whole long post i just typed...gone
GONE I TELL YOU.

poof.

e last un-posted post stated i was deliriously happy.
well now i beg to differ.
im currently all woebegone cos i have to type out everything again
plus im pissed cos my efforts of typing the 'perfect' post, went down the bloody drain.
miaow miaow MIAOW~

ok WHERE WAS II???????

oh ya. west mall...

yesterday went to west mall with marmie, my sis, jen, cloe and clovis.
they(cloe and clovis, with their mum) just came back from america as they are having their summer holidays. how long it is? 3 months.
so darn lucky are they??
and cloe totally looks hot.
hotter and hotter. omg i feel so inferior just standing next to her.
her complexion..flawless. pimple-free.
and with her tube dresses, omg she is so like a hot chic.
sighs. can NEVER be compared. i will be going down and down.
if i were to stand beside her now, i guess i will be casted off by one side!
her radioactive hotnesss....

anyways back to the trip
i saw this red tee which was so cute.
hmmmm should i buy it??
hmmmmmm..........

we settled our lunch at sakae.
i must have not been on my right mind as my appetite was alarmingly small.
i love sakae. everybody does.
yet im not eating much cos of the bloatedness. well geez... whatever...

besides i was too busy starring at clovis gobbling down unagi sushis with stopping.
he ate ten plates of it(=20 pieces os unagi sushis)
and before that, he ate a unagi burger. ACE. BONUS.
my jaw was hanging loosely. like a noose. ewww thats disgusting...
i mean how can he still stay so skinny with that huge appetite of his??
i have to control my diet just to maintain my weight
(im not being bimbotic. it is just a typical every girl does)
and he can just eat all the food he wants
without worrying about the weight and fats! and weight!!
i dont think he even cares of what is going on as long there is unagi.
i bet everybody will be envious...

after that we headed for the face shop.
NAIL POLISH TIME.
from orange to violet purple to golden olive.
ooo i got them all. finally.
lols.
cloe got herself 6 colours. too many for me to remember...
ahaha.(dont worry. im just killing you with my toxic lameness)
jen also got herself some skin products.

later, we went to swensens.
(i think you are wondering how come we still can stomach so much food...)
i ordered a sticky chewy chocolate ice cream.
before i ate, i quickly ask people if they wanted to eat cos i didnt want to spread my virus to others. lols!
and almost immediately after my question, everybody(excluding clovis. he was busily engrossed with his pokemon diamond game) was pigging at my ice cream. lols!
watashi wa.....HAO REN!
thumbs up!

ok backtracking...
i learnt that fries, dipped in ice cream, was good.
taught by cloe:D:D
i know. it sounds disgusting.
i found it disgusting too.
but it isnt that bad once you tried it.
we people must try new things in order to know what is good.

aiya so not the point.

after that we headed to ah ma's house.
that was when jen started using our nail polish,
relishing every moment using our nail polish to polish hers
haha just exaggerating..
anyways she regretted not buying.
so my mum accompanied her back to west mall to buy the ones she and cloe wanted.
(in the end jen got the wrong one and they went back again!)

while we were waiting, we(cloe, me, my sis and clovis)
played mahjong.
i very xia suay, never hu at all.
everytime im about to chi, somebody will either pong or hu
miaow...

but my luck came back
hu three times in a row.
gentleman-luck has fallen onto me!

the rest of day was ok
redundant to type it all down...
actually i am too lazy to write it down.
lols.
my anger with blogger has wear thinner. thank god.

picture time. so lame

excluding the pink ones. count the green ones.
they are the number of plates comsumed by my cousin...CLOVIS

it was supposed to be a pyramid.
after a round or ten of jenka.
it became like this...

that is cloe. hot hot hot!!!
and the stacked up mahjong tiles.
but the only object you will notice is cloe!!!
HOT!

and i just read this column in seventeen
about this guy saying girls are very obsessed with their looks.
lols.
i agree. in a good way.
girls always stand in front of a mirror, perfecting their hair , clothes before they go.
i mean..which girl likes to look all sloppy outside?
i dont!

i dont even know why i am posting this....
i guess im just bo liao

gotta fly away. my hands are worn out.
tyres are flat.
so lame
ok sayonara min-na!

_____booming and blasting____________

hellos. hi-s. wassups.

yes im really lame.
and sick.
down with a 'severe' sore throat, cough and subsiding fevers.

went to school with sloppiness.
when i was walking to school, i almost felt like i was floating.
my mind was somewhere else,
i almost felt like fainting...

oh ya did i mention i saw a rat at my house downstairs?
so eee and yerrr.

well natalie told me to be more alive cos i was too quiet
probably she couldnt get use to it cos im always laughing like a mad donkey
and creating the utmost stupid lamest jokes.
haiish.

but anyways thanks for everybody's concern.
my greatest thank yous.

winanto everytime call me teh korr seller.
baka-da-you. lols. you then teh korr seller seh!
BLEAH.
you also teh kah. teh teh teh(pig oink)!

today we had a new ceramics teacher, mr todd.
well what i think about him....
he ..errr...how.....
very weird.
his specs and hair dont suit him well.
he has a long body.
he reminds of egna in the incredibles(you know...the short lady who design clothes for super heroes)
.
.
.
.
.
bottom line: he is weird....
and funny...
and a little dorky
i guess im ok with it cos im also in the same clan. dorks
hmmmm well maybe not cos im not a walking disaster when it comes to fashion??
my self-consoling:D:D
plus encouragement....


lols oh whatever lah.
not important.

well after my cca, my terrible headaches invaded into my head.
and again, i felt so giddy and naseous.
the pressure in my head was pressing and pulling me down...
winanto was very kind hearted(for the first time)
helped me carry my books.
lols.thank you so much TEHKOR seller=p
jia li said my hair was in a mess
like some hopeless girl. yupps.
i guess so. i was so lost then...and now too.

haiix i screamt too much in class.
throat getting worse.
haiix my brain is hopelessly dead
plugging it with electricity wont work cos im so upbeat.
no mood to talk, walk. sighs
i feel tormented plus tortured.
save me from my despair and 'delusions'

ok i wanna rest lerr.
hope to get well enough to eat curry or any spicy stuff..
*drools*
see lah u caused me to be like this mark!!!

and yupps.
one more thing...
im very insensitive.
i know. i cant help it.
i just..cant control my blurrness.
i cant think outside the box and see into certain things deeply...
eff.

____petrified________

ello fellow people:D:D
im currently in a dont-really-care-what-is-going-on attitude.
life is still great. as usual. studying and having fun:)
now im popping many poifull jelly beanies in my mouth:D
how sweet and gummy:D:D
im so in love with sweets right now:D:D

aya today was just crazy!
art club has never been this fun:D:D
me, nat and ricia were taking the lamest videos ever.
i kept doing this falling down cum fainting act.
natalie and ricia too.
and when i fell, i look like a wobbly chicken lah.
ric and nat say that i am very professional:DD
yippees!!
and then we kept videoing story about two ordinary girls
trying to get over the painted rainbow.
of cos the rainbow not painted by us LAH:D:D

'this production is copyrighted. this stunts are supervised and are dangerous. ohmygod productions'

only natalie and ricia will get the joke:D:D LOLS!!

and today we were having a chat with mdm rafilah
not that kind of teacher-friend chat.
it was just a friendly chat. we were talking about boys, school
and teachers:D:D:D
lols. mdm rafilah can be so cuddly cute at times.
sometimes i cant believe she is 44.
she sounds so young. so much youth:D:D:D
she said that im kinda independent.
as in the kind who knows how to draw a line between fun and studies:DD
gawd im such a nerd...welll is that a good thing??

sadly she isnt gonna be in charge of art club soon
as the school CLAIMS she has to drop the job
bcos she has her sepak tekcraw(dunno spelling) cca to handle:((
BOOHOO-ES~
but good news is that the next person in the line
is............... MDM NURAIDAH!!!
omg omg . so happy lah.
she is my history teacher. plus another bonus.
she is my second fav teacher.
somemore she is cute. and her height is nearly the same as mine!!
i always preferred shorter teachers to taller ones.
hahah probably cos im short??
and i have to bring everybody down with me and height...
LOLS.

i know... lame shit lah.
just love talking craps!

yepps. im crying over another matter...
mrs gan will be on leave for a month
due to some operation...
sighs. yesterday i actually called her just to ask if she was free so that
she could take pictures with me, amanda and natalie.
and she said she wasnt feeling very well on her back.
haiix very worried for her. see lah amanda tell me call her COS she waited for me lorr:(((
sighs wondering if she is alright:(((
i pray upon every single bread crumb, stars, EVERYTHING
that she will be ok after the operation
hope she can recuperate FASTER so that she can teach us again.
HAIISH i actually missing her when i started hating her in the beginning of last year cos she kept scolding me and nat for laughing too much and felt she was cantakerous:D:D
but now..im missing her naggings when i dreaded it so much in the past...
even though she is not physically here,
she mentally lingers in my mind:(((((
melodramatique huishii:DD

IM MISSING HER:((((:(((


ipw is going bad....
my foot. i will be lying if i said that
=.=(lameshit)
but there are some 'setbacks'...
we do not have the materials.
and no offence to ying kang and samuel(well this isnt really a bad bad thing),
they are like stone statues.
i have to admit, they do follow their assigned tasks,
which is a very good thing.
but they are simple very quiet. too quiet for comfort.
we(me and natalie) have to take the iniative to discuss with them about the details.
if none of us break the ice, the ice will always be there,
and even we broke it, miraculously , the ice will 'patch' back.
there goes the effort of making us talk about the project:((


TRALALALAS. i think im floating away in my dreams....


a 'emulsified' eraser heart

alienic hard-boiled egg!

me and fely:DD

lameness is the new addiction=.=

it's been almost a week since the nanyang funfair
and yet im going to post about it.
yippees(the boredom is just killing me)

the funfair was mediocre. well at least to me.
the weather wasnt being very friendly.
the sun was like a orange. just brighter and bigger.
and i was pespiring alot. seh.
and i dont have the foggiest idea where to get the coupons
to buy things.

well everybody has change. some are beyond recognisable.
some of my friends may have outgrown from their childishness,
and they think maturedly. much more than before.
im not really used to it cos i think im still as wacky even tho i have matured a little.
lol. well people change over the years bahh.
maybe i did. just that i cant notice it at all...

anyways because the boredom was killing us,
me, ts, cleon brother, kevin heng, en wen, marilyn, brenda, delwyn, min yen and vicky headed for plaza singapura then to cineleisure(dunno the spelling).
sadly en wen have to be home early...so she could not come with us to cineleisure:((
we went to book a room in LAN.
but it could only occupy five heads=.=
so some of us have to 'sacrifice' and do window shopping while some stay and rest.
we 'ordered' min yen to stay cos she paid an extra $6 for this booking.

anyways tool neoprints with delwyn, vicky and ting shiuan dar.
we were looking good. really prettaye

cleon say my shoulder very broad,very SHUANG put his elbow on it=.=
but i keep looking at my reflection in the mirror,
then im like wondering, my shoulders very broad??
im petite, how can my shoulders be broad??
sure will look not in proportion...
like a troll. and troll arent the nicest-looking creatures in the world.

eee yerrs.

after me and ting shiuan walked with cleon to plaza singapura( he wanted us to walk with him cos he didnt wanna be bored-.-),
we boarded the bus back home.
during the journey, there was this hunk with his girlfriend squeezing their way to the exit.
and the minute they stepped down the bus, the hunk exclaimed
'singaporeans are so fat!'
i was so utterly shocked, i just said 'wth?!!'
ting shiuan laughing at me lah....
from his strong angmoh accent, i think he studied in overseas(he is a chinese btw) .
but it is like so insulting to singaporeans.
so what if you are a hunk and have what it takes to make girls wobble in their knees,
it does not give you rights to say so right??
your nice facial features will never bring you far xp
=.=
have you ever seen fat people before in other countries??
dont tell me you dont cos if u do, i will bash you up>.< embarrassment="((">make sure you feel you never existed.

felt so much better after speaking my thoughts out.
i really had enough of this kind of people.

pfft.