17th october:
it was cross country.
i totally dread it. loads loads loads.
why do they have to organise it the second time
it is so redundant...at least for me
the kind who hates running and sweat
and rather stay at home to pig out and sleep.
i absolutely protest against the idea of any form of sports
(except hockey and badminton)

geeez anyways i still ran
wasnt much of a choice.
i didnt want to be the last few.

after the X country,
i asked mrs gan for my maths..
she is disappointed with my marks:(:(:(
i was UTTERLY disappointed as well, much more than her thats all i know
i nearly fessed up my reasons to this.
but there isnt really much of a point to tell her
what and how it all happen and why everything stung and stunk bad.

god teachers are getting another impression of me
like im some problematic student who is a magnet to troubles.
they think that i have done not so well due to him
i mean cmon....i do not have the time to think about it.
i already have a effing load of another prob...
do you really expect me to think of that as well??!
so what if i did think about it, do you expect me to just brush it off?
do you think i want all these stuff to fall upon me
at the crucial time, my END OF YEAR.
blame it on my karma or what so ever.

when will people get to understand that people can fall.
so what i have done well(thats what people claim) in sec one??
does that really apply to every year of school?
i would love to maintain that image honestly
BUT I CANT!!!! i cant!!!

grrr get off my back.
just stop telling me how much i have fallen
cos i do know what are the reasons.
and do you think i like it??

huishi you gotta chill man...
you are just going thru whatyoucallit.
part of school, part of life.
chill man....

i gonna suck ice until i have cooled off

i went to bugis with amanda and felyna.
when we were heading to the food court
we coincidentally saw mao mao, brandon, guan jie, alex and wei xiang.

we went to bugis street.
spotted so many WANTED clothes
skinny jeans, little miss tees...more tees!!
lols i really want to buy everything but i dowan to spend so much.
gonna save it up for my holiday usages:D:D:D


18th october:
went to JE with amanda to eat.
settled our lunch in pizza hut.
lols. we gossiped about almost everything.
it is fun just sitting down and chatting over a cup of coffee...
but in this case we did it over curry baked rice and pizza...

sighs im getting so lame...

today sucks.
i can tell everybody is so shocked by my maths. seriously.
i wish i have a real therapy buddy to help me.
shheeeeshhhh.......

and i really have a burning question for everyone...
am i the kind who has anger inside me?

i wish upon every bread crumb everything can be resolved
even if it takes me to go through the hurt and
let them go from all the pain....