im lazy to do the quiz tingshiuan. sorry!

same excuse. HA.

7th august and 8th august is freakingly awesome.
took alot of pictures with steph and asyiqin. yupps.
all the photos are in her phone tho. so if you want to see,
CHECK HER PHONE.

my blog is really dead. it has been almost...no no...
more than a week since the last tag. which is mine=.=
so if u happen to be reading thru this post and have seen the above statement,
please have a gracious heart and tag sth. anything .
just tag for goodness' sake. the tagboard is on the verge of dying from a terminal disease aka not-being-tagged-for-a-damn-long-time illness.
just say hi, bye . SOMETHING. feed/fill it with rubbish. whatever.
JUST TAGGGGGG. PLEASE!

feel like changing blogskin but kinda lazy.

oh ya did i mention abt the labrador park thingy?
lets see...nope.
ok. i just wanna say im really sad cos i had to use my phone to sms cos im the sms master blah blah. and great my bill exploded. wampoo. like great.
i totally didnt expect to use my PHONE to sms PEOPLE.
is the school really scrimping on everything for the sch we are building?
the thing is that i wont be able to see it cos by then, i would have graduated.
tsk much.

oh i bought a watch last thurs with steph.
lols cool wanna see the watch, go her blog. then see.

i feel that people shldnt say they copycats or whatsoever.
i mean, ok i did say things like ' copycat, copy me sia', blahblah.
but now, when i think about it. i find it really stupid. really.
like seriously, if u bought this really cute dress, and then u see someone buying the exact same thing, does that mean she copied u or whatever u people call it?
ok if u see someone wearing the same necklace as you, would you accuse her/him for copying you? i mean, hello, that person may not even know you, vice versa.
like get over the fact that he/she has something you have luh.

ok mood swings are setting in. bad huishi.
must learn how to control. MEDITATION

ya know, sometimes u just want to let ur frustration out.
and at times you just feel like breaking down.
and the best thing is that nobody notices it.
and sometimes i feel isolated . ahaha im not emoing please.
is just that sometimes it is inevitable. it is unpreventable
it just happens. just pretty worn out.

ok whatever. lols get away from me moodswings.
must regain my cheerfulness.

oh ya HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA POH!
now that u are 15, dont scream into my ears!

and yixiu, u did a good job on 8th august.
dont dwell on it babe? CHEERS!

and this saturday is mybday!
i wont ask for gifts, tho i truly love to receive one from any.
but just rmb my existence and wish me happy bday!
i would bless you with my heavenly innocent power!
oh HOLY.

ok gasps im just making y'all feel cold right?

gosh my gastric pains are concurring .
and i need my dark knight.



by saying all those shit crap, i came to a realization that you really dont seem to understand me.
forcefully, i forgive you. but i always have to face your ATTITUDE, until now. so ya i had enough .
by saying all those blahblah things, it doesnt really affect me anymore.idc idb.
im no longer as nice as before, as forgiving as before. everybody has a limit
so just stop it. before i blow. im just a bomb ticking away.


i know some of you get what i mean.
steph and yixiu, u know who im referring to.
*winks stupidly*


and if u ignite it, i will burn you down.

runny nose, minor slight sore throat.
fatigue. sighs.

phlegm is stuck in my throat.
feeling bloated again. legs are aching.
had napfa ytd. tried my best. think im gonna get silver.
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HOO-RAH~

tingshiuan , i saturday then do ur quiz ok?
really sleepy and tired and sleepy.
and tired.


there is sth stuck in my throat. not a fishbone.like.... idk
tired tired tired. oh man i still have maths. and chi compo.
DIE. sighs oh my flu, run away, go away from me. gasps

i think my mind is flying .

sucky face. but note the skirt.
disgustingly short. but only steph witnessed it!
you people know i dont wear such short skirt in school(:

gummy sweets. i look like i just vomitted blood.
stephanie looks likes an pervert. hahas dont kill me.

i like this pic. cos we both look cool:) in my opinion:D

couple horr? NO. but we look like one, HAH!
this pictures depicts a story of a just-broke-up couple, TO ME.
it is like we were walking on the streets, then we saw each other.
trying to avoid eye-contact, winanto just walked pass me, like im invisible.
and there i was, crying...

chey nothing of this sort happened.
me and him? hahah the sky will tumble, break, and then fall.

ok if u dont get it, i wont blame you.
cos i dunno what the hell im typing.
mind went haywire

random.

i have uploaded some pictures, (duh=.=)
hope the people in the picture would forgive me!

people have asked me about what i meant on the other post.
about the mistake i made last year.
it was referring to the number of times i cried in school.
which i have reflected on. and i totally find myself stupid.
*slaps myself*
lols and please dont ask me why.
i will smack ur face:D
nah just kidding.

ACES DAY. dance and dance.
dont get the steps. and i danced like a chicken. pok pok.
and we are gonna learn more new steps next Tuesday.
i hope i wont fall over and tear my pants apart.
god im getting super lame. wonder how steph can tahan my lameness?
*thinks*

edwin :lols tanned and dark gt diff de k. im tanned n u r dark as wad u've admitted n if im burnt pig dhen u r roasted.
me:you are not tan. you are darker than tanned. i roasted at least not as bad as burnt right?
edwin:lols careful get eaten n tanned=shiny=my skin.
me:yours is shiny and burnt. HAH!
edwin:lols roasted pig is oso shiny bt u r nt coz u is chao da de roasted pig.
me:hahas. please im getting SLIGHTLY fairer ok.
edwin:lols, agreed, last tym is cant c u in e dark de
me:oi not so exagerrating right?
edwin:hahas nxt tym u go 4 a swim le dhen we 7th lunar mth go play hide n seek at old changi road, u sure win

and then later...

edwin: lols black until stand at white wall oso tot is paint
huishi: hahas it means i blend. for you arr, stand on wall people think it is wall that is scraped.
edwin:lols, U IS tot it is a hole( he thinks im the hole....tsk!)

u stupid burnt pig.
call me roasted hen? i knock ur balls off.


off to read manga.oreo is nice to eat(and lick!)

daddy(real one ar, please), i love you so much.
you are my hero!

and im glad i inherited your cool-temper genes...not.
too panicky in sticky situations.
but i am happy that my dearest friends were there for me.

but im glad to have your eyes. same big near-to-black eyes.
cool !

my hair is so thick.
so layered yet the ponytail is so thick.
hahas but im happy about it:D
sudden appreciation for my thick hair.

you might be wondering why i mentioned about my hair from out of the blue huh?
cos my mum said sth about my hair.
she was stroking my hair today, then she suddenly said that my hair is very layered.
i was like 'really meh?very thick leh.'. hoho.
she told me to not cut, later layer layer and botak.
hahas exagerration! anyways the part on the botak thing was not true.
like i mentioned in my previous post, dunno which...
i said i would leave it long. anyways my hair grow really fast.
within six months, my hair can grow at least 5-6cm.
cool huh? happy happy. cos end of dec my hair would be nearly reach
half of my back. by then , i would be a super happy crazy hyper girl.

part of me wants to do a super layered haircut.
hmmmmm but im not giving in.
gonna wait until my hair grows real long.

and seriously i abhor porridge.
insulting me....
i hate you .wait 'hate' is a word too strong. i dislike you
your life must be miserable
by the increasing no of haters.YOUR haters i mean.
i dont care. im not gonna DISAPPOINT you.
im gonna do it, prove it. prove to you im not all that lousy in that subject.
when that happens, you will be the first to hear the GOOD news.

dickhead.

recently i have been spouting various vulgarities.
not turning to an ah lian dont worry.
just that some *** people make people's lives miserable.
why dont they just disappear? they only bring misery.
dont know why. are they like some testers or obstacles in life?
chey .

(before you say anything, i must say this :IM NOT EMO-ING)
im just so angry at myself.
i dont know. im just so pissed and frustrated for the past week.
or month. dont keep track on these mundane stuff.
SOMETHING made me think. think about lots of random things
which slowly resulted into anger, hate and abrasiveness(mental note: i wrote abrasion at first but check the dictionary and realised i used the wrong word. HAH!)
. and i really hate this.
im tired of listening to IT almost everyday.
sometimes i get so tired ,i wish i can just sleep the whole day,
just so that pest-like thought would vanish.
except i cant do that cos i have homework.
so i turn to studying...to rid this idiotic thoughts and abrupt emotions.
and it is somehow working. i understand the depth of some of the topics from the sciences better now.
as much as i want to stay strong, i still long and yearn for a shoulder to lean on.
yet i will reject cos i dont NEED one. not trying to act cool.
AND i want to say this, PLEASE DONT SAY YOU CAN BE A SHOULDER TO LEAN ON.
except if you are one of my besties-girlfriends. see it, GIRL-friends
if not, shoo. really, shoo.
but seriously , what for? people will think you are fake and pretentious in the end.
i made a mistake last year. so not gonna repeat it again.
so ya, rather stay strong, cool and funny.


and ya i dont believe in what people call 'fantasy'.
COS IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN. no offence though.
why fall for it when you already know it can never happen?
haha people will say im being way too practical and realistic.
yeah. seen too many things happen.
so mindset will automatically tune. yupps. so cant blame.
blame on those who started those happenings.
hmmmm actually cant fully blame them..
aiya whatever. this is so redundant.

right now, im kinda not in the mood.
sighs and i really want it to go away.


okays think of the bright side of life.
hmmmmmm....
i have a project to do. oh nothing to be happy about.
ok my primary schoolmate Emmanuel just told me he dissected a pig's heart.
ok not being sadistic. but u cant deny that it is kinda....interesting.
a kind of thing which makes u ask alot of question.
sound like a nerd dia. hahas.

oh gosh i have been busy surfing the net,
i have totally neglected my geo project.
friday must hand in...so rushing.
why cant the the teachers put forward the deadline?
i think this sentence sounds weird.
nvm.

byes peeps. needa start on something.


you know, i really want you to kiss my arse

heys people:D

err brandon, dont have to SHOW your wowwow love for your lp:D
and audience, dont think dirty:D

im watching spiderman. i have to admit, he is really unlucky.
his life is filled with crisis and struck with all sorts of disasters.
the love of his life just told him she was going out to be married!
sighs if i had a life like his, i think i might jump down a building.

hmm speaking of suicide, i dont know which ways of suicide would cause the least pain of all.
okay need to clarify, im not EMO. just wondering...
i personally object to the idea of jumping down a building.
what if you fall, and land on the ground(obviously=.=), AND survive.
it means that you will have to go thru an ordeal and suffer.
not to mention medical bills. hmmmmm.....

hmmmm what about drugging oneself?
your life would be 'eaten' bit by bit due to the effects of the drugs,
and the pain slowly creeps within/inside you.
eh i think that would really be painful seh.

i cant possibly list out every single way of killing oneself.
but it all boils down that every way of suicide
brings pain and despair.
hahas i dont really understand whatthehell im saying.
loads of crap in my mind.

went to jurong point yesterday.
saw numerous fashion disasters.
okay, im not in any position to comment on people.
but seriously, a super short pink dress( the kind that will show your bottom when you bend slightly) with no pants or tights?
i dunno. still got alot more. just cant recall for the moment.

i have finalise my decision on what im gonna do with my hair
im gonna keep it very long, not too long tho
and im so gonna have those curls felicia chin's has!
woots!! gonna be patient.
*note: when i made this suggestion to brandon, he gave me that sucky look.

speaking of which, i hate this particular ______(hint: got to do with sch)
i mean, ya, i admit i have no interest in the subject ____,
so i need a teacher who can motivate me to learn more. i know, EXCUSES.
you know, questioning me on my 'O' levels and how i feel on how i might my fair in that subject
is totally stupid. cos any normal human would say you will do ok in it.
it is a ego-kind-of-thing.
who would admit they dont have much confidence or say that the probability of flunging that subject is kinda high?
not me , that's for sure. and you have to stample on my pride by saying im acting smart!
well, look's who talking.
and which part of my conv with you did i ever mention anything on my intelligence?
ass sia. and please, talking to my friend is not equivalent to not listening to you.
it's not like im ignoring you. im not even engrossed in the chat with my fellow friend.
i did LISTEN to you lah. i was taking down notes you blind***.
only settle with brainless conclusions without even getting your facts right.
ya , you say you dont want to care about me right.
fine! lets see who gets the last laugh.
i will show you i can do it. i will. and when they ask about anything on my results, i would say
it is all due to my effort.
that is when you can suck your stupid lemons.

i guess people know who im referring to:)

well wait im not sure i can actually do it, but will try my best.
tmr, after my food feast with friends over at seoul garden, i will study!
hopefully i wont forget.:X

WATCH ME:D

as if you can.


you make me laugh, you make cry, i dont know which side to buy

stephanie, i would like both juices. more flesh juice though.

and this is for steph:

it is alright to have phobias. it takes time to get rid of it.
and heck those asses who dont give a damn on how you feel.
if they dont seem to understand, dont have to care them.

and it is perfectly fine to be depressed once in a while.
nobody's life is polished and perfect.
and please if you do anything stupid, i will be the first friend to punch ur face.
(nah just kidding only:D)


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ok now im doing my dumbass LV project.
mdm tan complained about out slides being too general.
so have to re-type, research. whatever it is.
it all boils down to redoing everything.
...


wah im seriously bored. i need someone to sms me but stupid me cant sms so much.
im not used to people calling me cos i feel my voice sucks .
i seriously sound like a man. not the slightest bit girly, i tell you.
it is so grrr. i totally detest my deep voice. gah.
and the glaring sun is robbing my chance of getting fairer .
the sweltering heat is making me perspire a carton of water, or sweat i should say.
i hate it cos my hair gets oily so quickly after my bath.
maths have proved to be a headache for me. partial fractions are so longwinded.
i get tummy pains regularly which makes me curse alot(in my mind).
my hair have grown over my shoulder but im still not satisfied with it.
veryyyyyyy slow you know. please, my hair. i beg you to grow faster.
and cos i sacrifice the opportunity to cut my hair during the hols so that it can grow out, my hair
have turned to a thick thick mess of hair.
ok not really a mess but it is alot. so it means i get hot easily.
steaming hot= perspiring ALOT.
a STEAMING hot person is an ANGRY person.
and now im freaking pissed with my brain cos i think i left it in school.


ok off with my project. trying to recall what the content was in the teacher's guide!
BYE!

ytd went to newton and eat. i ordered a longan drink. this is what i get:

water with syrup from those longan dessert thingy, with, of course, bits of longan
thats not all, the syrup is so miserable, you can almost taste water.
so is that longan drink? i dont know. hmmmmm....


ok MISS STEPHANIE TAN , done with the LV thing .
i will print the other part of lv for four of us:D

okays... i dont know what to type.

errrr school is going to reopen. ok im suppose to pretend im really uber excited for the day to come.ok ok...here goes.....
WAH IM SO HAPPY SCHOOL IS OPENING SOON!!!!.....not.
whole holiday do homework and do homework.
june holidays should be called ' homeworkdays'.

ok i want to stop blogging.
days are boring:((( BYE!


and again, im a rare breed:D

13th june
happy birthday yunqi!


14th june
happy birthday winanto!


15th june
happy birthday MUMMY!


16th june
happy birthday JIEJIE!


18th june
happy birthday baboon!




ok settle . all happy birthday wishes are said!

im getting rather lethargic these few days.
dont ask me why. cos i dont even know.


i want to go out! i want winanto to come back from his fishing business in indo!
ok i dunno if he does fishing over at indonesia...to heck with it!
suddenly miss his goofiness and how he solve his rubik cubes,...
and somehow gets panicky when someone is timing him.
i want to go out, no shopping please. just bask into the air,
smell air, breath in air, and
cycle...


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speaking of cycling, i was suppose to do that on wednesday, 11th june.
BUT ...i didnt. cos stephanie doesnt want to cycle! so does brandon.
and i feel slightly awkward to cycle with stella.
not that she is weird or yucky or anything like that,
cos i had this feeling we wouldnt really cycle, i mean ME cos i wouldnt dare to climb onto the bicycle.hahas so SORRY stella! next time when im super confident that i wont look like
a gorilla balancing on one egg, i would definitely cycle with you!:D

and if we have this next time, i DEMAND steph to cycle with us:)
muhahahahahahahhahaha!!!!!

heeheee and she doesnt, i will smear anything i have in my bag onto her face:)

*hope she doesnt see this! hahas lame-.-

anyways steph and brandon seemed surprised with what i wore on that day.
they said i look like a boy.brandon kept saying he is sitting next to a boy at burger king.
(i was sitting next to him, obviously =.=)
so i asked steph if she willing to be my girl.
she said she doesnt want to date a bangala :((

i think i was being a tad too boyish as well.
well, i got stares from people, i observed.
maybe they really thought im a REAL boy.
hmmmmm i wonder. what if....

NAH!
im a imperfectly normal girl who likes guys.
that doesnt sound right. like im some bargirl.
it should be : im a imperfectly normal girl who have crushes on males.
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.
.
i think they are the same.
you get the whole idea anyways.






PICTURES



















library




















stella and i :D



















ok i think this picture is uncouth for a girl.
i look like a boy. hahas my sis told me to put this up tho.




















we acting funky.i think my posture is abit coquettish. hmmmm.
steph looks she is gonna eat the sock.

*note : i typed COCK just now.




















wow. cup got magic water.


there was actually this picture where steph and stella look like twins.
but rather lazy to upload:D


and you know what, im a rare breed!

on second thoughts, i wont do the quiz.
sorry tingshiuan!
i cant even copy paste the thing.
and currently im a tad too lazy to type out everything.
so SORRY tingshiuan!

going out with tingshiuan, augustine and randy.
woopees! beats better than rotting away at home.
i have been watching cardcaptor sakura.
finished season 2. now onto season 1.
and i have been binging on alot of snacks.
i spend at least an hour cooped up in my study room,
studying and doing my homework.
very guai right? hoho.

going to sentosa or pasir ris park on wednesday i guess
I AM GOING TO LEARN HOW TO CYCLE!
hoi! gonna cycle! dont care with fall over the cliff,
splash into the mud or rip my pants apart(?)
IM STILL GONNA LEARN CYCLING!
to heck with constipated facial expressions.
STILL GONNA CYCLE MY LIFE OUT:D

yesterday went to setph's house to study with yvonne.
apparently, my face is really funny.
cos stella, steph's lil sis, never failed to laugh whenever she catches a glimpse of me.
and cos we were joking about something, the soup and macaroni from my mouth
shot out back into my bowl.
and the way i sucked e life out of my coke with a stupid face, according to steph.
and i kept laughing hysterically. dont bother asking me.

finished my chem. we were all confused with all the balancing of chemistry thingys.
hope we can get the hang of it:D

i dont know what to write.

aiya i dowan blog. BYES!


lyrics -better in time.
Oooh oooh

Hmmmmh

(Verse)

It’s been the longest winter without you
I didn’t know where to turn to
See somehow i can’t forget you
After all that we’ve been through

Going
Coming
Thought i heard a knock(Who's there? , No one)
Thinking that (I deserve it)
Now i have realized
that i really didn’t knooOooOw

If you didn’t notice
You mean everything (quickly I’m learning)
To love again (all i know is)
I'ma be oooOook

(Chorus)

Thought i couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
Oh yeaah (It’ll all get better in time)
Even though i really love you
I’m gonna smile because i deserve to
Oooh(It’ll all get better in time)

(Verse)

How could i turn on the TV
Without something that would remind me?
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feeling?


If i’m dreamin
Don’t want to let it (hurt my feelings)
But that’s the past (i believe it)
And i know that, time will heal it

If you didn’t notice
Well, you mean everything (quickly i’m learning)
Oooh turn up again (All i know is)
I will be ok

(Chorus)

Thought i couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh yeah(It’ll all get better in time)
Even though i really love you
I’m gonna smile because i deserve to oooooh(It’ll all get better in time)

(Bridge)

Since there’s no more you and me (No more you and me)
It's time i let you go so i can be free
And live my life how it should be(No No No No No No)
No matter how hard it is
I'll be fine without you
Yes i Will

(Chorus)

Thought i couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh(It’ll all get better in time)
Even though i really loved you
I wanna smile 'coz i deserve to yes i do(It’ll all get better in time)

Thought i couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too yeaaaah Ooooh oooooh (It’ll all get better in time)
Even though i really loved you
Gonna smile 'coz i deserve to Ooooooh (It’ll all get better....)

MUST PLAY THIS SONG!

heys!

i havent been online for almost a month, excluding the IT enrichment
which was a total bore. the lecturers were slacking, well most of the time.
but they were very good people . throughout the enrichment, they allowed us to use the internet
if we BEHAVED ourselves:D

i have alot of things to update on.
people are telling me to update...
but im kinda lazy:D cos i have not touch the computer for more than a month.
thought people wouldnt exactly notice. my blog is usually dead, well to me.
so i really appreciate the fact you peeps actually read my blog and want me to update.
but my memory bank isnt the size of an elephant, so i cant exactly remember everything i did .

and im missing out lots of stuff without going online.
last to see, last to know, last to witness.
well this is not the point:D

attended a wedding dinner on 24th may.
basically, i was walking, IN MY HEELS, to find the venue where the wedding is being held.
i guess my mum had it worse, since she wore stilettos , which was gift from my sis and i to her for mothers' day:D
me, my sis, mum and grandma were walking back and forth in EXPO.
and im telling you, EXPO is SUPER BIG.
never ever going to step inside again. i cant imagine myself having to walk rounds just to find something. brrrrr .

i realise something, even though i have some arguments with my mum,
or we exchanged words, i still love her always cos she is always there for me.
although sometimes i do get intimidated, i still love her:D
mum YOU ARE THE BEST:D

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it is not about the necessity to wish someone happy birthday.
people do so , because people have put you in their important list of friends.
they called because they want you to have the most memorable birthday.
they stayed up because they think YOU are worth it.

and we honestly do not wish to see him hurt you again.
it is not about going through us before going out with someone.
once bitten, twice shy.
ya, i admit, we were against the idea of you going out with him.
you may question about your own freedom and choice of friends,
we may seem CONTROLLING and probably ...OUTRAGEOUS?
i tell you, we were not.
we were merely concerned and feared of the possibility of everything repeating again.
we just dont want to see the whole cycle start again. it is unbearable.
is this too much? arent friends suppose to FEEL this way?

and ya we intended to throw a surprise for you.
but we decided to cancel it cos you were going out with your family,
which is pretty understandable(on the part you celebrating ur birthday with your family)
then tables are turned and shockingly, we were the ones being surprised.
turns out you went out with him.
hmmm...well we may sound totally unreasonable.
but only cos this was came across as heart-shocking news.
we were not expecting you to do anything, ya.
anyways, you have the freedom to hang out with friends,
so this should be put aside.


and i agree with steph, we are also reflecting on ourselves.
occasionally, i do think whether the whole rollarcoaster ride is worth it.
and i want to tell you, nothing in this world is worthless. nothing.
so, like what steph said, we do not wish to have this friendship ties being severed.

i rather we will talk to each other face to face.
'cept, maybe not now, since the air is still very super ultra mega thick.

im not pleading for anything.
just voicing my opinions. and clear the air.


and this is for another person,mind you. dont jump to conclusions cos it does not refer to you:
PLEASE DONT ACT AS IF YOU KNOW EVERYTHING.
dont even TRY, i emphasize , TRY to point out my misdoings.
or mistakes or whatever people call it.
nothing in this world has everything structured out perfectly, i know.
but do you think i saw all of it coming?
oh, did i persuade god , to what, let all of these things happen?
clearly you dont really know the situation.
so STOP assuming and telling me what is right or wrong or whatever.
you want to be a smart aleck, go do it to someone else.
im not going to take ur nonsense.
do not wish to HEAR any rubbish. so GET LOST.
and before you go, GO CHOP OFF UR MOUTH!


i hope things will tide down.


** will post pictures some day. got over hundred . so dont expect me to actually bluetooth-ed all the pics from my phone to the com and upload.:D too lazy.
but i will remember to put some memorable ones:D

HELLOS!!!

i am officially off the emoness.
cos basically my friends have made every single day of my life damn freaking fun:D
shalalalalala.

i shall:
.never ever resort into thinking of anything depressing!
.never pretend/acknowledge the grass on the other side is much greener
.never put myself down. its just depletes my energy
.never drop an egg on the floor ( i did that today!)

ok ok. rewind back. gotta remember what i did. hmmm...

oh ya yesterday winanto, natalie, ricia and i went for some competition at suntec.
it was about EARTH day. something like that.
we came with our tiny paintbrush- ornaments and old brushes.
but we kinda freaked out upon seeing every school, who participated in this too, had
prepared boards and blahblah , and they look stable and steady.
hahas heck care, we did out best by talking,
especially me but i was blabbering all sorts of craps which came out naturally from my mouth.

and apologies to winanto. he didnt have the opportunity to speak up.
so sorry!

and today....

*DRUMS ROLL, PEOPLE JUMPING*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to....


NATALIE PHANG PHANG!

now that she is older, her duty is to take care of me and stephanie, who are on the go
of turning fifteen. we dont feel old and never will be!! muahahahah

=.=

anyways ..NATALIE!


i hope you like my present:D *winks*
and it would stay comfy! FOREVER!

a friend is like a bra, which makes u feel comfy all the time~

hahaha!



ok i flunged my a maths test. HOO-RAHHH.
gotta practise more man..go huishi go!
and steph and i made the same mistake:D:D:D
sitting partners mah...what to do??
sit together, make mistakes together, laugh together, hate (a person) together.
hohoho.


about the egg incident..
ya today i dropped an egg. on the floor.
and i was frantically calling for help, inside my head.
but i stayed cool in front of my mum.
my sis saw the mess and helped distract my mu while i cleared it up.
i was literally smelling the floor to detect if there was any smell of eggs!
used the cloth, tissue, mop. anything to rid the smell.
mum thought i spill the egg on the stove,
and i nodded. and she believed me!

im such a good liar:D

and for those who i despise:
there are SUCKERS out there in this world who cant suck anymore
COS they are too damn sucky:D still got the cheek to accuse huh...

***

and i wish mdm rafilah good health.
i hope she gets better soon.


***

bah bah .
im so bored. i have camwhored alot to pass time,
did my a maths. my handwriting was so so immaculate at first,
and then became very untidy cos some of questions are wrecked
my ability to write properly.

ok i have nothing to write.
my head is empty. check it out, it is hollow.

dong...im so mundanely lame.

and sorry weiting for the patapon music which blasted him right out from his seat tothe gorund and blown away into the sky...

kidding here

**

went for the self-esteem workshop last tuesday.
it was really cool seeing candice again,
she looks more cute in her shorter bob-hairstyle.

anyways she showed us some video clips
which was amazing. and very saddening.
especially the part where we saw a video on a girl whose face got melted and burnt.
she is the utmost beauty in the world, she faced all her fears and handled it well.
and forgave the culprit for what he has done.
sometimes it takes alot to forgive one person for her/his doing.
but she did it effortlessly, which is pretty cool to me.

and i teared when i saw the clip on mother theresa.
i couldnt hold it back anymore so it just fell out.
*you may think that what you have contributed to the world is just a drop of water into the sea, but the sea would be missing a drop without you

i dunno if that is correct, but the main point is stated lah.

today is my grandma's birthday.(sort of)
happy birthday!(i know she cant even see this..)
anyways today had sore eyes, totally was in a daze.
forgot to thank people. blah blah.
wasnt myself basically. felt like i was floating.. weee...
ok cut the crap and get to the point yah?

timothy was cute today. tried to play the car games with marc's psp,
and sadly,his tiny fingers are not long enough to press the buttons.
and he likes blue cars ALOT. really alot
not to mention, he cried buckets cos marc was going home.
his eyes were watering non-stop, his breathing pace was kinda irregular.
but it was a cute scene. lols. i sound so mean.
fancy laughing at a small boy who is crying. HA~HA~

fixed my spectacles. the nosepad(?) plastic stuff ...the one which supports the nose lah.
that thing came off. wampoom.

and today is crappy. at first my phone went stupid.
so i decided to reset the settings. and this process would not delete anything in my phone.
just what happened?

600+ of my photos have disappeared!
and all the nice ones were 'deleted' automatically. applaud for the idiocy of the phone.
i was so pissed i could rip the whole phone with my teeth.
What Hurts The Most


I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....




initially i wanted to post some stuff.
but decided to backspaced it. and somehow edit it to look nicer,
and presentable. you can skip it if you already presuming that im such a darn faker,
and just trying to capture the attentions of others.

and if you already thinking beyond that, im sorry dude,



and i dont mean anything. really.
maybe im not sensitive enough.
anyways you find your story soon.
when everything goes your way.

this does not refer to anybody:
i know you want me to die so much. you are wishing for it.
for all you know something might happen.
im tired of dealing with abrupt emotions that comes and go.
happy, sad, happy , sad, angry, happy, angry.
can i ask? is it a crime to look like you cry alot as if like a crybaby,
but the actual fact was that it was a method to vent and clear the sorrow accumulating
in the 'ill-stricken' heart?
seriously, i dont know who im really am.



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ok from here, the fonts might go haywire again.
gahs this is so irritating.

okays i also have no topics to say.
so sorry yah, this post might be a tad too boring.

pictures will posted some other day, a day when i can actually recall.. kinda lazy now.

cloud is a hottie!!! arhhh !!!!
(btw, in case you dunno, he is from the sho final fantasy VII: advent children)

nobody can pull of that style of his (this sentence sounds weird...))
* flys around in the room, you know like when you let go an inflated balloon*

cloud is so handsome. *dreams of him*

*snap back into reality*

okays. im trying to clear the drool .

the habit of biting my nails has come back after after 9 years .
now i love biting them, which is totally unhygenic.
but it kinda challenging when u have to peel it slowly
so that the nail wont be torn off and the blood would flow out..and..and.
aiya im getting lame. at the same time boring your socks off.

my current blog;s song is 'sweetest girl' .
i absolutely loved this song.
(i was dancing in the shower when the radio played this song! )

and yes stephanie, mr lee is very blur.
stilt = concrete blah blah... yes yes mr lee we all know you are on a growing-old phase.
lols actually kinda agree with steph. he is kinda fun to be with, not to mention entertaining.
and he even praised me on my drawings! and said i could work for DISNEY.
oh the sweet glory! ( i sound as if im actually working for disney, which is possibly untrue)

but it were to be true, i would first ask zany to come with me to see peter pan.
okays i was super random about that sentence, but i suddenly thought of her.
she better be honoured to see this . muhahahhahahaha.

i yearn for many things this month.
i want to get good grades for MYE,
i want a good report from every teacher,
i want to go to bangkok ( clearly for shopping purposes and massaging service:D),
i want to buy a damn huge lollipop and share with my itsy-bitsy- best pals:D,
i want to have a nanyang gathering (only with my good friends),
i want to sing better and have the most melodic voice (=.=),
i want my hair to grow out as fast as the wind( okay maybe not that fast),
i want to go on a train ride on my own ( i know, im weird),
i want to go fly a real big kite,

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.
.
.

i want to fly a real big kite... at times like this i wish my brain was a toilet bowl,
so as to flush down my pathetic memories.
going back to memory lane...
oh shoot.... stay focus man.

oh i havent buy nat's present!
i dunno what to buy for her man...
i want to buy something that is eccentric yet creative.
people, give me some advice! what should i buy?
the idea of giving her a shopping trip actually came up..
but i decided to put that aside:D nat must be sad seeing this. lols.

im such a wet blankie.

oh speaking of april fool , i got smacked on the forehead by winanto korkor few times.
april fool was not april-fool-ish(another one of huishi's nonsensical english. please, i repeat, do not learn).
wanted someone to play a decent prank on me, like pulling my bra strap .
ok im just kidding, pulling bra strap are strictly prohibited. lols.

i have learnt many things from my sitting partner during chinese:BRA.
i have learnt that MOST GUYS like girls who have all or some of the following criteria:
.healthy tan skin *unlike mine which is like burnt skin
.smooth skin ( when i asked bra this, he gave me this 'duh' look)
.be sporty
.have straight hair but not those super straight kind
.have long hair ( many boys have commented about my hair, saying that long hair was nicer on me)
.have dimples
. smile genuinely and laugh naturally(not those gu niang kind, where the girl use her hand and delicately covers her mouth.)
.wear slippers ( bra's liking, may not be applicable to all guys)
.have the fringe flying everywhere ( im just exaggerating, cos personally, i like girls to tie up their fringe, with some styling though)
.strong in the heart, in other words, CONFIDENCE
.ability to make funny jokes or have good interpersonal skills
.to have a slim figure (this is not confirmed, my assumption:D)
. do not scream for heck no reason
. no acting cute!
.no acting tough, pretending to be like the hulk.

there , the list of things guys expect from girls.
it might be useful for some girls i know, especially the last three.
you know, people you should know, you must know what im referring to!
HAHAHAHAHAHA!

im addicted to the song 'year 3000' by jonas brothers.
thanks to nat! lols.
i kept singing and singing, and most of the time it went out of tune or i sang the wrong verse.
some day my sister might just use her book to throw it in my face, and tell me
to shut up before her ears slowly decompose. :D

yucks im so disgusting.goodness gracious me.
i have the urge to watch 'bewitched' :D whoosh!

and my legs are itchy. i feel like a monkey cos im trying to scratch my itchiness away while typing this post , and my sitting posture is like those kind of posture you get from those ah peks you see from coffeeshops. :(
mymymy, i have to learn to be more ladylike, as my mum would always say.
she said im super untidy for a girl. once she wondered if i was of the right gender.
haha. mummy, im purely female. no in-betweens or dunnowhatyoucallit.

motto of the day : i live in my underwear :D
inside joke between me, nat and winanto>.<

the idiom goes : 'everything happens for a reason'
but nobody has explained why does it happen?
is it so as to test the devil in the heart?
or it is just fate im going through the same thing over and over again?
my faith withers away as time passes.
and im oblivious to it, r am i not?
god, save my soul.
everything always seems perfectly fine
until something happens and the cycle repeats
and then it stops. this is so unpredictable
and it is wearing me out , flat.




and im fine. just babbling about random stuff

i inferred that im super random.
here goes another random phrase:

a good man never makes a girl cry?
so does that mean a bad man makes a girl cry?

when you are happy , you see two pair of footprints on the sand.
when you are upset, you only see one pair on the sand.
you want to know why?
god walks with you whenever you are happy,
so as to spend the happiness with you,
that is why you see two pairs of foot prints

but when sorrow and sadness invades the fragile soul,
you only see one pair on the sand
because god is holding and lifting you up ,
and he is embracing your problems so as to make it go away.
that is why you see one pair of foot prints.

now you know why.

when my mum told me that, my heart felt like it has broken out
from the ice, absorbing every warmth it could find to melt the cold prickling ice.
not that my heart is frozen or in terms of literature, being depressed,
just a feeling i can only describe through this words.
my vocabulary is not very wide.

im so happy my eyebags have shrunk. and my dark rings have vanish. whoosh!

gtg peeps. stay tune for huishi's randomness.
thats if anybody is reading.
so please peeps, tag my board! be a kind soul and do a good deed.
you will be rewarded by me:D

maybe only...
(sorry about the font size, tried to change but failed :x)

old times are terribly missed.
that was us when we were 13. and i look so ...small? i dunno.
and i look kinda tiny....(as if im that BIG now)
i really miss nanyang suddenly.
i really hope en wen could come out and just hang out with us.
the four-some shopping trip:)will be anticipating for it.
the only obstacle : en wen might not be allowed to come at all!

sighs.... i suddenly feel im such an .... introvert.. only for now dont worry.
i was thinking of many things, linking from one to another.
sometimes, you just feel that you are in the wrong , the culprit of all sins.
sometimes, you just feel like riding away from everything.
sometimes, you just want to be invisible once in a while
just... like vanish from the crowd to have the privacy of being alone, to think .
humans are born to make mistakes,
we just have to know how to pick up ourselves and dont pity oneself,
but rather embrace the fact that you just have to walk on
and see where the path ahead of you leads to.. .
okays im not being emo, i was just...well...thinking:D
its good to think at times, and not being so brainless and be irrational(?).

okays i better snap back to what im usually am,
which means being whimsically whacky. woohoo.


meet the parents session was okays.
most teachers said when im in doubt , i would seek for clarifications.
all comments were positive, except mr lee's. (i took a sneak peek)
he said i am really inattentive in class, and im talkative.
i guess he hates me cos i had a borderline pass for ch and i TALKED too much:)
and that im distracting steph. being talkative isnt an epidemic-kind-of-thing.
im just sociable :D:D:D
yawns...
anyways mdm tan said my languages are weak and i have to improve on it.
my mum was telling her that in the past , my english was good
but it took a toll in secondary school and my english's results dropped.
(mind my english, it is getting very crappy)
i was sniggering cos the whole conversation between my mum and mdm tan was kinda humourous .

oh ya i received this lame sms (according to the fowarded msg) from winanto.
it was kinda hilarious...might as well share it with everybody. spread the joy~:

(befroe their marriage)
boy:...
girl:so do you love me?
b:of course!
g:have you ever cheated on me?
b:no! how could you ever think that way!
g:do you think im pretty?
b:yes! you should think so too
g:do you think there's a woman out there better than me?
b: NO WAY!
g:i love you!

(after marriage)>> read backwards.

it is really silly lahs. and cute too.

brandon was fast to say he wouldnt do this to his gf.
wahwahwahwah 'power' seh. the future is filled with the unpredictables.
lols i mean...you never know. :)
rah.

goodbyes people. have a nice night:D
its good to be nice seh. aha! mdm tan also said it is a joy to teach me:D
ultimately true. *tears in joy*

i like a dot in a circle:D... are you getting horny reading this?

well i was looking at my blog and suddenly,
i saw this thing popping out from my blog.
it took an second to realise it was the imeem music box(whatever you call it lah!)

YK~hs: muz work hard for yr English le.i believe u can do it !!

when i saw this, i was very happy at least somebody understood how i feel.
even though he expected me to get high marks, he still cheered me .
unlike some who just rub it in you face, with eyes wide open, and go like' you failed, i thought you very good in the (subject) ??' that kind of crap. which is very very annoying.
okays i am not proud to say i failed my english but i did.
definitely, im disappointed with myself but there is nothing i can do.
i have done the test , i cant rewind time.
so all i can do is get a grip and move on. and break a leg.

i suddenly feel like talking about stereotype- thinking.
i hate it when people expect you to do better than what you got.
parents always say to not care of what others expect,
but it isnt that easy. unless you are kind who is so full of yourself, super confident or just cant be bothered to care of what others think of you.
there is nothing wrong with failing once in a while,
so why cant people just stop expecting so much??
is there a need to trample on people's pride with such snide remarks?
some are indirectly offensive , some are annoying , some are unintentional.
but whatever it is, it is still frustrating having to hear such remarks.
some are conscious of what comes out from their mouth,
so why dont you THESE people return the favour??


nvm about that.


yesterday went to nat's house for barbecue.
it was awe-to-the-some. helped out in piercing the prawn with satay sticks.
substain some minor cuts but nothing could be compared to what winanto KORR(hehe) contributed.
he was practically by the pit cooking for everybody throughout the bbq.
please applaud him for that. *claps claps claps*
and i must really point this out: ALEX BANGED ONTO THE GLASS PANE.
i cant believe it, he literally banged on to the pane.
he was on his way to the toilet, and ahead of him was this really transparent glass pane.
so he thought there was NOTHING in front of him.
so he ran...and BANG!BANG!BANG!. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA~
stephanie, stella(steph's sister) and i were laughing .
even nat's aunt , who was upstairs in the condo, could hear the tremendous din(?) alex created.
super hilarious. you should have seen the look on his face. HOHOHO!!:DD

oh ya, on the way to nat's house , i remembered something i saw.
it is not offensive nor obscene but it is just weird + funny.
there was this guy, who was using his hand and pushing his girl's head,
just so to snatch a kiss from her?
a surge of giggles was going to blast right out from my mouth
but it would be a total embarrassment.
i mean imagine , the total silence, aside from the engine sounds,
which has taken over the whole train....
suddenly you hear somebody laughing to herself
you turn your head to realise the laughter came out from this tiny short girl.
okays i think i shall be a scriptwriter. a very super lousy one indeed!
pose seh. nice right?

happy people:D


picture of the day. okays it is upside down but it is nice.
th other weird crazy pictures are in nat's phone. LOLERS.


and haziq and hafiz laughed at my ezlink card's pic.
and in the end steph and my tummies were 'ruptured' cos we laughed too hard.
and another in-the-end, more people saw the pic and lsughed even harder.
mdm tan didnt recognize me ! omgoshshshshshshshs!

i have watched 3 movies over the holidays:
the waterhorse
horton
sky of love <33333


ok this is when you let (for girls only) your inner bimbotic side of you scream!

3...
2...
1...
0!


*SCREAMS*... AHHHHHSSSSSS!!!

hiro(from the moviesky of love' ) is undeniably CUTE.
his bleached white hair is so so so handsomely COOL. he looks so suave in that punky hairdo.
omg i could melt just looking at his face,
he is so so so so adorable.

okays i sound so bimbotic now. lolers.

this movie is also at the same time really sad. you will cry buckets i tell you cos i did.

*any couples i know, YOU MUST WATCH. it will be a waste if you dont watch it.
all guys will be given the perfect chance to let their honey-bunny(this is getting icky)
a.k.a girlfriend lean on your shoulder and cry. then your job will be to take out tissues to wipe their tears or if you dont have, allow them to use your t shirt! then blah blah continue your own story from here!

hahas i think im getting abit too open here. and annoying at the same time.so lets talk about something else aye? :):):):):):)

recently yunqi has been writing me letters, updating on each other.
it's really cool , without using any form of technology such as smsing or stuffs.
it may look like it is kinda old-fashioned writing letters .
but at the same time, it gives me a very warm feeling.
euphoria, is that what i should be calling it? i dunno.
yunqi says she wants to give me a box of letters and i was kinda taken back, not negatively though.
does that mean that i have to slowly read each letter she wrote?
and have to write her back a super duper long reply'? hmmmmm....

will end my post here:D gonna blast into the air!

oh wait. not being a wet blanket, but ...
CAN YOU BELIEVE TMR IS THE START OF SCHOOL AND A NEW TERM???
and meet-the -parents session is coming soon.
kinda anticipating to it, want to hear what the teachers have to say.
i bet mr lee will say i always sleeps in class and is always unattentive. blahblah.
but nobody can blame me right?? his lessons are so deadlessly(no such word, please dont learn) boring so i kinda CANT HELP sleeping in his class. sorry mr lee:x

and mdm tan (chem) might pinpoint on my hair or something like that.maybe....hmmm..

i hope i dont get any bad remarks . heehee.

okays this time i will end my post. ciao people. and please tag my pathetic tagboard:(

.action taking place:doing geo project

.currently having a bad headache from browsing one website to another. and having to do at least 15 powerpoint slides on it. i cant even count it with my fingers. how 'little' is that huh?

.feel like:slamming my laptop but cant

.so far only did 5 slides.(10 more to go.. nice going HUISHI)

. helped tan hao with maths but got myself more confused than he is.

.typed out the summary points for my dear brother , winanto.

.helped tan hao again in maths. he is so adorably funny during the whole conversation, repeating the same equation on msn, and me processing every single word(or number) he typed for me to check.

.my stupid short hair is not dry despite the fact i bathed AN HOUR ago.

.just realised i havent done my english newspaper cutting and stupid chinese letter writing(i have decided to leave out the homework i have to do in my chinese workbook.....in pretence. gawd what the hell am i writing??!)

NOW: im in the state between dead and still-going-on-lifelessly.

woah. so much for HOLIDAYS.
YA. SO MUCH FOR THE HOLIDAYS WHEN IM SUPPOSE TO RELAX A TINY BIT
WHEN I CANT BECAUSE THE GEO PROJECT ALONE IS WEIGHING MY POOR BRAIN DOWN. 15 SLIDES IS SUCH A 'SMALL' AMOUNT OF WORK RIGHT, MR LEE?? WOW GUESS WHAT? NO MATTER HOW BAD THE SLIDES ARE, THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO STOP ME FROM HANDING IT IN, AND IF I HAVE TO REDO THE WHOLE DAMN PROJECT..HURHURHUR.....YOU SHALL SEE ME WALK OUT OF YOUR CLASS. STEP BY STEP I WILL MOVE.

okays my sanity has gone messy.
tonight i MUST do the english and chinese hwk.
geeez i really DISLIKE chinese.
gahgahgah sometimes i feel like dropping it. T.T

screw myself if i slack again. i need transplant(?) chinese knowledge into my brain.
god somebody help implant the memory card of everything related to the language CHINESE into my head. or somebody enlightened me into liking my lovely mother tongue.

backmasking is so damn scary.
go search on it on youtube,
and i can bet with my life, you will be scared out of your wits.
those hidden messages behind the songs will definitely make your hair stand,
especially those sang by the beatles.
*hair stands*

and i dislike people who label people as 'brainless'.
i mean i wont dislike them, i just dislike that kind of comment.
(added this just in case i offend anybody)
i mean seriously, does that kind of comment make you look any smarter?
brainless people are people without brains, which is rather impossible.

meaning of spam:
to send the same message to many DIFFERENT people using email or the internet, usually a way from someone to advertising something.

^
^
that was for some people to see :D



anyways, i have loads of hw.
past two days i finished my a maths revision exercises 1 and 2.
went back to school on saturday to get my bloody chem workbook.
i mistaken it with the practical book cos they look so similiar
and logarithms are terribly tiring for my pathetic brain.
but i shall move on and practise!
practise makes perfect.
.

and today i realised i didnt bring back my chinese textbook as intended.
.
and holidays are not exactly holidays.
have tons of homework:
A maths-3 revision exercises
self study on E maths(even have a test on T2W2. WTH?)
chinese- letter writing
chinese-workbook(got answers from behind:D)
english- newspaper cutting(like this would really improve my english=.=)
chemistry- formulae ws
chemistry- workbook
physics-graph
geography- project on some river. (i deleted last year's project =.=)
social studies-one source-based question:D:D

and im truly glad i dont have any supp classes over the holidays.
if not i will tell my teachers to go bang their head on the wall.

**
brought (books) back:
chem textbook
chem workbook
chem RING file
chem practical book(it was a total mistake to bring this back)

physics textbook
physics workbook
physics RING file.

geography workbook
geography textbook

ss textbook
ss workbook

chinese workbook
chinese textbook(getting it tmr)

a maths textbook

emaths textbook
emaths workbook


**

and books i have to bring(from the list) on monday(opening of school):
.chem(including practical book cos i have practical on that day)
.physics
.chinese
.e maths
.a maths.

books amounted:
uncountable.

***

and these few days my english have gone really haywire.
during art club my english was a complete disaster.
i even said: ' my english is something bad'
jiali and mabel were laughing at that sentence


***

people, please tag more often.

****
i suffered three cuts in one day. four actuallu
woohoo!!!!
now im being-cut-tendency girl. woohoo~
lets just blame on my karma? :D
and please people, im not being sadistic.
these cuts are not on purpose,
i will never ever resort into carrying out such foolish acts.
no offence to those who do it out of stress and all.
(NOT TO THOSE WHO DO IT OUT OF ATTENTION !)


BYE peepoes:D

now im eating grapes and reading a book called 'mates, dates and chocolate cheats'
so give me some time to finish reading the book before i continue the post:D

******* 30 minutes later********

i decided to read it later and continue to tempt myself with wonder grapes.

L is hot. you girls have to admit that.
i tried typing the way he did in the movie.
and it was hard. my fingers were going everywhere.

*the next few parts of this post fromnow might be a tad too boring for many, so you can skip it if you want to:D

watched this show named ' i shouldnt be alive'
it was about survivors(a guy and a girl, two in total) from a boat crash(dont know how u call it)
the tides and waves in the sea was very strong , causing the boat to shake violently.
water begun to seep into the yacht and the choice they could do was to abandon the yacht. they threw out the lifeboat(aka dinghy) and they jumped out.
that was only the start of their terrible days, mark my words.
the people were clinging on the edge of their dinghy.
one of people onboard, who happens to be the wife of the captain, injured her leg
and gash was awfully deep...deep to the bone.
fear , sadnesss and loneliness were what they felt the survivors claimed.

one of the guy friend of the survivor accused e female survivor of kicking him.
she checked what was causing the kicking by looking into the water.
and guess what she saw?
SHARKS. not just on , two or ten. it came to around TWENTY PLUS.
imagine how threateningly scary is that?? twenty + sharks right below your feet.
if i were her, i might have just scream and do nothing.

anyways, they quickly climbed onto the dinghy and held each other closely.
the dinghy was filled with seawater, mixed with urine and pus(oozed out by the girl's wounds)
((i was literally shaken when i heard about it. the disgusting colour of the water, the horrid stench.my heart was thumping to a irregular fast-pacing rhythm you know ))

so days passed,two of males on the dinghy went to drink seawater out of desperation(they were severely dehydrated, same goes for the other.)
they even said it was holy water. their sense of common sense has officially went nuts.
so time after time, the tortures of hallucination and craziness begun.
both jumped into the sea, saying that they saw land or 7-11 and wanted to stretch.
the other people in the dinghy could not do anything to stop them for they were drained.
so hence witnessing the cause of their deaths, which was being eaten alive by the sharks.they moaned and cried. they wanted to relish to be heroes but yet they didnt move an inch to save their friends. sighs.

what made them(survivors) more depressed was when the wife of the captain lost her marbles. it was clear that she was badly infected by the gangrene in her wounds and it has spread to her brain, causing her to go mentally mad.
she begun to speak in tongues, words nobody could comprehend, and she did weird hand signs, as if being possessed.
they knew death was lurking near her and truly, the next day , she was lying on the spot she sat , silent and motionless.
the male survivor was thinking of eating her up, despite the fact that cannibalism is strictly prohibited. but the female survivor was firm on her roots. besides, the body was so infected, eating it could lead their lives to fatality.

thus, they took out her clothes, jewelery as memories for her family.
they said their prayers and threw her body into the sea.
hiding their heads under some plank was the next thing they did to avoid the sight of her being eaten by the sharks.

their hope depleted to the extent that they rather die then go on.
LUCKILY, they saw a russian ship and waved at them.
TADAAA, they were saved:D

my sis told me she cant stop thinking about what happened and what they must have felt and now im influenced by it. gasps gotta stop thinking, before i get nightmares and insommia and rely the works(or magic) of sleeping pills.


******

with people like steph, edwin, tan hao, alex, jiajun, yu heng, haziq , yenshan.
im bound to be as horny as i used to be in the past.
omg i cant believe edwin and alex can relate horny stuffs with practicals???
EEEKKKKKKKS~~~~~~~

even on the phone, im horny. LMAO.
must rid some of the horniness:D:D:D:D
or maybe not...hmmmmmmmm.

and during PE, i got slammed by e ball during FnC(mt group's name) presentation, by none other than my very good pal TANHAO.
stupidity and idiocy are the only things i can describe about this event.
i literally placed the hoolahoop right in front of my face, giving tanhao the accidental chance to smash the ball in my face. i think i looked stupid at that time. gos , what was i thinking? even tan JJ ridiculed at me. gosh.

is my brain on the verge of losing its mentality??